Friday, April 07, 2006

DAD

dad.
i never knew what it meant.
i was so young then to understand.
what i saw was what i thought was the meaning.
you are a man. a violent.
you hit mom every single day.
you took every cent of her pay.
you made mama cried.
you made me cry.
is that what a dad means?
to hit. to abuse. to hurt.
i hate you so much.
not because i wanted to.
but you made me hate you.
you were never there.
you never cared.
now that i have grown up,
it hurts even to think of what you did.
to mom.
for 13 years you treated her bad.
for 13 years, i wonder if mama always feel sad.
did she ever felt happy when she was still with you?
i don't know.
mama never complained.
only she knows how painful it was.
she never cried infront of us.
she smiles and laugh all the time.
dad,
now that i'm older
why only now do you see me as your daughter?
why only now that you are proud of your children for their achievements?
you never cared.
you never did.
why now?

sentimental.
emotional.
now.
why do i think of DAD everytime i'm alone with mom?

posted by heartthatcries at 3:42 AM

Name: heartthatcries

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