whatmyheartsays

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2007-07-31T14:10:00.001-07:00

you know what?

i wished you read blogs.

i wished you read mine.

im not sure if im disappointed.

or should i say sad?

i do not know.

and i do really wished that you read this blog.

cos i want to tell you things i cant seem to convey to you.

"i wish i AM the first person to know. about things. about you. but its not coming. cos all this while, i think i AM the last to know."

well, i still wish. and wont stop wishing.

Nana.

ANNOUNCEMENT.

2007-07-19T19:37:00.000-07:00

dear people,

i think ive decided to leave blogging.

as much as i want to, time does not allow me to.

yup. so, so long and take care.

love,
-siti mas'ainah-

Introducing...

2007-06-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

DNA.

:)

the reason for my evryday smiles.

When Love and Hate Collide

2007-06-03T08:50:00.000-07:00

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby, united we fall
Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby, like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes
There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby...Crazy...Crazy
Without you One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
If you have a heart at all
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

-Def Leppard

sometimes..

2007-05-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

there is so much to tell.
so much to share.
to laugh about.
to cry for.

however at this moment of time with the internet access problem i m facing, it got me pissed and fed up to update.

so far, all i can tell is that my life has been good. thank you.

the family.

the friends.

:)

love you all.

till next time!

-nana mas.

Dear Lie

2007-05-01T02:50:00.000-07:00

By: TLC

Dear lie
You suck
You said you could fix anything
Instead I'm fucked
You made things even worse for me
If I had balls I'd tell you get away from me
Guess I'm not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth would hurt me
When it's you that hurts me more

[Chorus:]
Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin' words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lieYou're dumb
You think you've got the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
I've got your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I've learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

[Chorus]

Lie lie
I've got
Your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Wont' let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

[Chorus]

Lie lie
Dear lie
Lie Lie Lie LieLie Lie
Dear lie

the other Side

2007-05-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

its May Day today. or be more precise, Labour Day they call it.

Today is boring.

the family had me for this whole hours of 24.

anyhow, yesterday's session with the Girls was freaking crazy.
i had my craziest, my nonsensical side up close and personal.

i dont know how i did it. it happened so naturally.

those stupid jokes. those boisterous laughs.

GOD.

that was the most laughing session i ever had with those girls.
it feels good. to be at that moment. wow.

now, is that a good thing or not?

at one point, i think i really am happy.
at another, i wondered: "am i heading for a major breakdown?"

well, whatever it may be, i still think i want more of that moment.

Till next time.

Happy Holiday People!

Now Listening To: Life Is Wonderful
Artist: Jason Mraz

ordinary

2007-04-30T00:03:00.000-07:00

Stayed at home on thursday and friday

how boring can Nana Mas's life be?

*roll eyes*

Got an engagement invitation a few blocks away from home on Saturday.
the bride: GORGEOUS.

many relatives were there.
almost every face seem unfamiliar.

wow.
i never thought i'd have a relative who looked like the No 11 Thai basketball player.
HAAH *do the patrik way*.

and so on sunday,with Yaya, stopped by Civic's Regional Library to borrow a book before going over to Zee's place for her farewell gathering.
Zee's going to India for School Attachement. how cool is that. however, i'm super glad that IA in ITE is local companies. i'd die of fright if i have to travel all the way to another people's country. *GULP*

well, Nana is a Scardy cat. :)

on May DAY, planned to catch up with the close 4 for zee's mini farewell gathering. however, seems like i chose the wrong day?
*woops*

okay. so much i've typed today.
dont guess when the next entry will be posted. ;)

Now Reading: FRIENDS & FAMILIES
Author: Margaret Kaine

Now Listening To: Say It Right
Artist: Nelly Furtado

There's Plenty to Share.

2007-04-25T22:24:00.000-07:00

one:

I went for my virgin ankle injuries treatment.

believe it or not.

A.c.u.p.u.n.t.u.re.

.OUCH.

Two:

Many-many thing happened.

In 24 hours.

Of that Day.

Three:

Met up 2 close friends at Vivo City.

Did catching ups and updating each other about current situations.

And so i brought along an Old-skool card game: SNAP.

We sanpped for almost 10 rounds and, guess who's QUEEN?

Need no introduction cos.. ehem. it was me. *thank you2*

Its been quite a while since a had a great laugh. it feels so great to be feeling like that.

i had so much fun that night. *honest*

After so much laughing and doing squads for snapping at the wrong card, we headed for dessert at Earls Swensen.

They both had Fondue. 5 scoops of ice creams, banana slice, strawberries, cherries, wafers, brownie and almond slice, almond-chop toppings and of course the thick and yummy chocolate fudge to go with everything in the list. and yes, a slice of 3 different layers of ice-cream cake for the belated birthday girl. the other's treat.

i had Waffle for myself. Rectangular shaped waffle with 2 scoops of vanilla ice crea, strawberry and marshmellow toppings.

I didnt enjoy it as much as i thought i would. cos its too much butter. :)

Anyhow, i really had a good outing. Doing it again soon. Be waiting for 15th. thank you chicks for making my day! :D

okay.
I could not think of anything else to share.

Shall update again when i update.

Take Care people.

Now Listening To: Everywhere I Go

Artist: Katherine Mcphee

Strike 3

2007-04-21T00:01:00.000-07:00

Strike Me Out

many many days have passed.

the dreams keep coming.

i think its already time to let go.

time for you to strike me out.

for me to strike you out.

strike me out.
strike my name.
strike my face.
strike all the memories about me.

good luck.

Demi Waktu

2007-04-12T23:03:00.000-07:00

BY: Ungu

aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
yang kini hadir diantara kita
namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
yang slama ini temani hidupku

maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
dan demi waktu yang bergulir disampingmu
maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
seandainya bila kubisa memilih

kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
mungkin semua takkan seperti ini
dirimu dan dirinya kini ada dihatiku
membawa aku dalam kehancuran

3 days

2007-04-12T22:56:00.000-07:00

its been three days since that day.

she is really gone?

i dont want to be selfish.

but either way i choose, will make me a selfish.

Now Listening To: Demi Waktu
Artist: Ungu

New Start

2007-04-10T00:19:00.000-07:00

Today's Horoscope:

Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)

If the status of a relationship isn't very clear, you should try opening your eyes a bit wider. If you're not seeing things the way they really are, it could be because you're afraid that the picture isn't as rosy as you want it to be. But you're dealing with your own happiness and future -- and knowing the truth is better than living in blissful ignorance. Seeing things as they really are doesn't always require courage -- sometimes it requires only a bit of self-respect. Besides, things are not as bad as you think!

sometimes, i became so blind i didnt even see the obvious thing infront of me..
my mind will be playing all the beautiful scences of a fantasy..
wake me up spmebody, please wake me up..
i need to open up my eyes wider, and listen to this heart..

One day..

2007-04-07T23:44:00.000-07:00

One day.
i will Fly.
Far away and never look back.
one day.

Unwell

2007-04-03T21:05:00.000-07:00

By: Matchbox 20
All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little unwell I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

Elle

2007-04-03T20:18:00.000-07:00

if Elle can listen and speak,
she will be the bestest friend i could ever have.
if Elle can listen and speak,
she will definately listen to all my stories.
if Elle can listen and speak,
she will tell me fairytales to make me happy.
if Elle can listen and speak,
she will bring me to a world far from reality.
if Elle can listen and speak..
if..
she will..
if she can listen and speak..

Last Night

2007-04-01T07:04:00.000-07:00

by: P Diddy ft Keyshia Cole

Last night,I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,I wanna curl up like a child.

I know you can hear me
I know you can feel me
I can't live without you
God please make me better
I wish I wasn't the way I am

If I told you once, I told you twice,
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,With nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see,Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain awayyyyy.

Tell me the words to say,
To make you come back,
And work me like that.
And if it matters I'll rather stay home,
With you I'm never alone.
Don't want to wait till you're gone,
Let me be, just don't leave me.

I'm so alone I'm soooo lonelyyyyy,
Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
And call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.
Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,J
ust call me a baby,I
'm waiting on you.

Breaking

2007-03-27T08:59:00.000-07:00

Leo ( July 23 - Aug 22)

"Be careful not to fly off the handle or say something you will regret. Your emotions will be close to surface, making you vulnerable and easy to read. Avoid anything that requires you to put your own money on the line"

i hate to admit this. somehow i have to agree strongly with what the horoscope said for today.

"Keeping things to myself would be a good option."
"The emotions taking control."
"Did'nt spend much today.- ZERO."

STRIKE 2

2007-03-26T22:27:00.000-07:00

2 DAYS AGO

HER saw HE again that night.
another dream.
silence.

HE gave HER a pretty shirt.
HER smiled.
HE smiled.
silence.

THEY walked away.
separately.
silence.

STRIKE 1

2007-03-26T22:16:00.000-07:00

THE DREAM

HER was there.
HE was there.
SHE was there.

that hug HER get from HE.

could it be the last, in the dream?

That Moment

2007-03-25T02:25:00.000-07:00

you.
me.
us.
we.
there.
alone.
that moment..

ATTENTION
The updates for the pass 23 days will be left blank as it is prior to the overwhelming laziness of the fingers. Thank you.

Now Listening To: Kenangan Terindah
Artist: Samson

mixture

2007-03-01T23:00:00.000-08:00

its been awhile again since i last updated.

i made no apologises this time.

heh.

been occupied with never ending projects. and now, with the upcoming wedding reception for my brother this weekend..

tired.

fall sick suddenly last night. became a 1 minute merlion. *ugh*

so, what passed?

the 14th annual inter-ite cross country held at Turf City on 28th of Feb.
ran for the sake of not wanting to be screamed at by an Ahlian Lecturer. :D
..it was pouring continuously..until everything ended.
..ran just to get it done.

Result: 8th for individual, 2nd for team - A Division

two papers down. two more left.

18 failures for EVM paper.
Top score: 14

SHIT.

Coaching Paper was earlier today.

SHIT-TER.

missing this week's game against UWC.

all the best girls.

see you people on Monday.

School friends, see you around when i see you. :)

till the next time i update.

-nana

Now Listening To: That's My Goal
Artist: Shanye Ward

been waiting

2007-02-23T11:17:00.000-08:00

waiting for your plane to touch down.

waiting.

FINALLY.

Missing an Angel

2007-02-19T08:04:00.000-08:00

Today is 20th of Feb 2007.

Had work yeserday at Bugis. worked for only 7 hours?
working again tomorrow at 1pm.

Anyway, Happy Lunar New Year to all Chinese friends.

The weather's back to wet. and cold.

i cant believe i still have to do projects. my GOD. this is never gona end.
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Yaya left for BAngkok on the 16th.
National Tournaments.
Wishing you luck always honey.
Play well.like you always did.
..and oh.. come home safely..
m.i.s.s.i.n.g.Y.O.U.

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ok. good night.

Now Listening To: Come Down To Me
Artist: Saving Jane

Long Walk Home

2007-02-15T01:56:00.000-08:00

By: This Day & Age

finding myself in a place i've never been
where i don't know myself or anyone else
i can dream about the past or i can just let it go
i lost track of time five days ago
what is it about you that makes me want to stay
is it all the love or isit just the pain

[chorus]
don't leave me now we've come to far
just to set our eyes on a new star
i'll ride on clouds til you come down
just promise me you'll always leave the ground

in the drivers seat is my self-esteem
where i know that the heart should be
i'm cleaning off these shelves to show you
how i've changed and if all goes well tonight
we'll call for rain
i'm moving pass the past at the slowest of speeds
hoping that our loves exceeds our insecurities

[chorus]

finding myself finding myself finding myself finding myself finding myself find yourself

i'm running in circles it's you i'm thinking of
and if you don't want to talk then this isn't love
a new destination i'll say my goodbyes with my back turned to you at least i know we tried

[chorus x2]

memories.

2007-02-15T00:52:00.000-08:00

on this lonely day,

i sit alone and think.

what was the bad memories i had in this life.

and all the good ones.

sister in-law's dad just passed away.

2 weeks before my brother and sister in-law's wedding reception.

and soon after that, its going to be my late grandmother's one year..

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V-Day was not really celebrated. hang out with my girls at Jalan Besar Stadium to watch Yaya play friendly against Temasek Jc's boys.

so Here is what i got for V-day:

ROYCE' Chocolates from dearest darling: Yaya

a PLAYMOBIL carrier from my baby: Nazimah

thank you so much for the gifts. *hugs*

Now Listening To: Gifts and Curses

Artist: Yellowcard

Let me:

2007-02-11T06:07:00.000-08:00

let me live my way of life,
let me be me.
let me go wherever i want,
let me be free.

say all you want,
i cant stop you.
do what you want,
i cant stop you.

let me go my way,
let me take the route.
let me climb the mountains,
let me swim the sea.

you cant decide for me.
no matter what you said.
you cant stop me from anything.
cos im living my way.

let me be me.
let me be.
let me be me.
let me be.

DONT MATTER

2007-02-09T23:17:00.001-08:00

BY: Akon

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight(We gon' fight)
Believe we gon' fight(We gon' fight)

Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together

Nobody thought we'd last forever
I feel I'm hopin' and prayin'
Things between us gon' get better
Men steady comin' after you
Women steady comin' after me
Seem like everybody wanna go for self
And don't wanna respect boundaries
Tellin' you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secrets
I held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I'ma have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight(We gon' fight)
Believe we gon' fight(We gon' fight)

Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no Cause I got you

Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all

Because the way I been actin' lately
Has been off the wall
Especially towards youPuttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything I been doin'
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't true(Ain't true)
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby

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SOCCER

1st game against U-17 was a draw.
1-1

Today, 10 Feb 07:
playing against Jolilads Arsenal @ 7pm, Clementi Stadium.

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4th July 2007:

Baby Edy Norman's 1st Birthday.

May he grow up to be a pleasant and respectful son, grandson and nephew.

Love him lots.

*he had learnt to walk. -smiles-*

till next time.

there were..

2007-02-03T20:49:00.000-08:00

1) BIRTHDAYS

Happy 25th Birthrday to Abang Bobby (23rd Jan)
Happy 24th Birthday to Kak Mariah (26th Jan)

2) CAMPS

19th-20th Jan: Sports Camp for Events Managment final project.

Venue: School

Duration: 2 days, 1 night

Personal Comment(s):

A great experience though there were hiccups.
Happy memories with all the girlfriends. :D

2nd-3rd Feb: Outdoor Adventure camp

Venue: Pulau Ubin

Duration: 2 days, 1 night

Personal Comment(s):

Likes the 10 km (which i think its more than that) walk from school to Changi Village
likes the food (though instant) ALOT
Night Topo was OK only. dont really like it la.. (scared)

3) RELIEFS

Projects finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now Listening To: Please, Please, Please

Artist: Muse

silence is easy

2007-01-25T22:34:00.000-08:00

she sat on the chair.
staring at the screen infront of her.
she read every words stated.
she felt the pinch.

she took a deep breath and closed her eyes.
she wished she read see it.
she wished she never seen it.
she hates the feelings.

she wished she could tell.
she wished she is perfect.
she wished she could run.
but she wished.

after all, she knows that sometimes, somethings are better left unsaid eventhough the truth is, she is hurting inside.

Last Week

2007-01-16T07:49:00.000-08:00

TUESDAY: 09.01.07
CCA open House at the Multi-Purpose Hall.
Not really a good respond.

WEDNESDAY: 10.01.07
There was only one class on Wednesdays. so, i think this date, i stayed back in school and did a project? (err.. not sure) heh!!

THURSDAY: 11.01.07
where did i went to eh?
did i stayed back in school?
i cant remember.. woops.

FRIDAY: 12.01.07
It rained so heavily.
brought my soccer gears for 1st training, but unfortunately we didnt get to train.
so, went dinner somewhere around Hougang with "the Sisters"

SATURDAY: 13.01.07
Woke up early (not so la actually..hehe) to meet eunice at woodlands interchange. headed to Checkpoint's Seng Siong to get the ingredients for Zee's Birthday Cookie. Yaya joined after that and then Mas and then Hazi.
We returned to my place to bake the cookies. it was our Virgin Try okay. Good Effort was put in..ALTHOUGH, we realized that we used more than 500 grams of Butter!!! *oh0oh* :/
but it still taste good anyway. heh!!!
yup. and they stayed over at my place and decided that we bake a new piece for the Birthday Cookie.

THE NEXT DAY, SUNDAY: 14.01.07
Eunice and i went to Seng Siong again to get the ingredients. but this time, we decided to buy instant ones instead.
we tried out. and YES-AH!!!!!!! *Phewit!!!* marvelous!
though instant, it is still a very good effort.

MONDAY: 15.01.07
Class started at 9am.
Ends around 4pm?
First Training with Paya Lebar Punggol Fc.

TUESDAY: 16.01.07
2nd training with Paya Lebar Punggol Fc

okay.
im out.

Gd nite people!!

Now Listening To: -
Artist: -

back to school

2007-01-08T05:09:00.000-08:00

once again, HApPY SChooL Reopen friends!!

a fresh start of the new semester. the final 2 months in ITE College East, Simei.

nothing much change for the time table. just that our Coaching Lecturer, Mr Trevor Lim is not taking us this time. Replaced by Mr Alan.

the January Intake came in today.

flooded the cafes and the blocks just like we did when we first came into the campus.

some familiar faces spotted.

still down with flu. heavy downpour.

CCA open house tmr.

oh well, im just so glad to see my friends again today.

okay. till tmr if i update, good bye.

Now Listening To: Come What May
Artist: Nicole Kidman & Ewan McGreGor

From Footie to Escape

2007-01-07T04:19:00.000-08:00

6th Jan '07
the initial plan was to kick ball at the nearby street soccer court in the afternoon with friends like Zee, Mas, Eunice, Yaya and some others from their club, Paya Lebar Punggol FC.

Eventually, we end up kicking the ball at Bradell Westlake Field, playing 11 a-side friendly for a new female football club: Jollilads Arsenal against Bishan Arsenal.

First time since the Holiday started, i got my ass running. fitness really pulled me down. went out about 15 minutes before half-time, and played a full 45 minutes on the 2nd half as there were not enough subs. i swear i actually wanted to sit right there and just ball-watching. my God. the heat. the field. i really feel like giving up (which i already did actually).

Had early dinner at Fork and Spoon, Toa Payoh after that.

got home and had my "ok" long warm shower.

the head spins like hell after that. it must have been from the heat.

Dehydration.

cried myself to sleep as the pain was unbearable.

well, overall, i really think that it was a great experience playing with experience palyers like my friends from the club and not forgetting to mention CiK Is and Mak Merah.thank you all for giving me the opportunity to play with you all.

7th Jan '07
Woke up at around 9am today. goto ready to head to the Escape Theme Park as planned. as predicted, all were late. (oh well, i just have to see who's coming.. hehe)
and so we got our butts at the place at 1 plus. and there was Shah the Joker & Natasha, Mr & Mrs Azhar, Dennis ans Naz & Nana. :D

to be honest, i was really (and i meant REALLY) scared to take the rides. then, after the 1st ride, i realised that im not scared at all. to overcome the fear, what i did was: Scream as loud as i can + laugh. seriously. it helps. ALOT. and i dont have to close my eyes after that. wohooo!!!
took the "water-slope-ride" and got myself all drench!!! my God!! it was Cool!! all the rides.
maybe someday, i will hit this place again. with more of US this time. haha!!

from headache to block nose and then now down with flu.

to those who were there today, thanks alot for the time. i had a good time and i really had fun today. thank you so much. to sop, my sreams are yours too aite. ;) take care girl.

and so we all know that school starts again tommorow.

uu-weee OR *sigh* ??

we shall see tmr.

im out.

HAppy School Re-open people!!!

Now Listening To: Promises
Artist: Matchbook Romance

here i go AGAIN

2007-01-05T07:19:00.000-08:00

The weekend is here.

two more days before school starts again.

2 more days.

the Holidays have been a boring one since the FIBA ended.

but it wasnt as bad la when i looked back.

this last week of the Holidays, what i actually did was:

30.12.06
Did the opening for work at Bugis.
Went Dinner at Swensen's with Yaya and Zee.
Catch Night At The Museum with Yaya after that.
Dinner and movies : Yaya's treat.
Hangout at Civic's Mac with Yaya till around 11.30pm while waiting for the rest of the family to get home from Fishing.

31.12.06
Hari Raya AidilAdha and New Years Eve and also Cousin's Fuad birthday.
stayed at home till early evening before the family and i headed to Aunt's place at Boon Lay.

01.01.2007
The New Year.
the initial plan was to join kak maria and 2 of her darlings to MOS. but i backed out last minute when we failed to get a room at a budget hotel. how cool is that? haha..
and the finally made a choice to hit Kak Nat's place at JB after MOS.
for me, i hang out with Yaya and the other sisters at Mas's place in Sengkang. yup. a night of freedom. for my sister. for me. :D

02.01.2007
i cant remember what i did today. *haah* sorry.

03.01.2007
Diana came over in the early evening. went out with her after so long.
dropped by baby Shima's work in town and hang out together during her break time. wow.
thats when i realised how much i've missed them. planned to head to the movies sometime nextweek. with darling Hazwani too. i cant wait. another Girls Day Out after 2 years?

okay.
you read the 04.01.2007 entry down there.

sorry ladies. i just hafta do this. haha..

*yes SHASHA. i know its 2007 already. i will TRY ok. no more long entries* haha* keep nagging at me. i will still love you. *winks*

ok. enough.
im out.

Now Listening To: In Your World
Artist: Muse

Coming Up

2007-01-04T22:03:00.000-08:00

Hello.

Hitting the Theme Park this Weekend with some Friends. and hopefully, it will be tis weekend.

uh-huh. cant imagine me riding in those big and scary play machine.

i' m a SCARDY-CAT. but im doing it somehow.

weee!!! we gona rock that place with my screams!!!! rite Sop?

ha ha.

less than 5 days to school reopen.

i want some more off days!!

*sigh*

you know hows it gonna be when school starts again.

Classes.

trainings.

games.

Projects.

aw. what else is new??

*Fuh*

taking it easy, im gona make through this.

im out!

Now Listening To: I'm Never Gonna Dance Again
Artist: George Michael

Here we are..

2007-01-01T23:23:00.000-08:00

12 months has gone,
another 12 months had just began.
all the bad memories was left behind,
the sweet, cute and beautiful ones remain.

this is a new year,
this is a new beginning.
it is time to look ahead,
be what i want to be, do what i want to do.

i want to be happier than last year,
cry less,
hurt less, (both for myself and others)
play more,
control my laughing syndrome,
grow long hair,
gain weight,
be fairer, (though its impossible)
take bike licence (still convincing mama),
graduate with good grades.

***********************************************************************************

..and so we are..

friends again..

Now Listening To: All Good things Come To An End
Artist: Nelly Furtado

whats COOKING today:

2006-12-28T07:57:00.000-08:00

Prepared & Presented by Abang Edy, Reported by Nana

whats needed:

1. oil
2. mince meat (spiced): own ingredient
3. france loaf
4. egss
5. onions

************************************************************************************

taaa-daaaaaa!!! here's what we had for Dinner. no rice. no gravy.

cos the Queen of the house is not well.

try it. its easy.

happy doing!!

Final Showdown: 2nd FIBA ASIA YOUNG WOMEN CHAMPIONSHIP 2006 (20th-27th December)

2006-12-28T00:05:00.000-08:00

Finally, i GOT TO upload the photo with #11. *Grins*

last nite was the final showdown for the basketballers from Korea and Chinese Taipei (for 3rd placing) and Japan and China for Champion and 1st runner up.

hard luck, both teams that we supported, Korea and Japan lost by 2 points to their opponent.

they played well. very well. congratulations to all teams.

last night, i gave away something precious to me. well, i just thought that it will be something memorable for her when she goes back to her home town. at least, something. not to remind her of me..(DUH..she dont even know me..)..but to remind her of our college. :D

wow. it was really a great pleasure to be able to meet this young players play. i very much wanted to talk to some of them, but i was too shy. just afraid that they wont talk to me back *kwang3*

more pics to be uploaded. stay tune. cos im still waiting from Dei and Nazimah to send mr the photos. :)

aite, till the next post. Daaaa!!

nana, Sangkhum#15,Khalan#14,Nisaimun#10, nazimah

nana, Janthabut P. #11, nazimah

if you could see.

2006-12-24T08:32:00.000-08:00

she waited for this day.
not sure if something will happen, but she never stop hoping.
she was extremely happy to get his text.
she cant stop smiling.

the next day she got her things ready.
those small things that was supposed to be his long time ago.
"today's the day i will give them all to him". she thought to herself.

with a nervous heart,
like a first time meeting someone you never seen before, she went out.
with happy thoughts she had in mind,
all the smiles and laughter she sees in her head.
she smiled to herself.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

there he was walking towards her.
she knows that default look was obvious.
she managed a "hi" and a smile and looked away.

she looked at him as he walk to the elevator.
she waited for him again to return.
he came back and they are on their way for their plan.

she smiled.
she feels like theres so much to talk about.
but she realised, there was nothing.

she waited.
for him to speak.
she didnt hear him much.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - -

they sat there eating.
a silent dinner.
she tried a joke.
he managed a (small) smile.

they made their way home.
he said somethings.
it breaks her heart.
she's not sure if he knows.

she hides the look.
she holds back the tears.
she took a deep breath.
and she faked smile.

- - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - -- - - - -

he sees her home to the door.
he dropped by for awhile after so long.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - --

..thats her mute day out..

look outside.look inside. do you see me?

2006-12-22T07:27:00.000-08:00

maintaining at weekly update, i know im 2 days late.

though the break is ongoing, work ccupied my weekends.

get myself involved for the Asian Young Women U-20 Baketball Tournament held in school.

helping out on the first two and last two days of the tournament.

and yes, im supporting team Thailand, though they lost 3 games already, including today.

and so, Linda support team Korea(No 5, KIM). Nana Pendek, team Japan (No 9, Nagakawa).
and miss SIBOK Naimah, team Thailand.

and nazimah and myself support N0 11, Janthabut P. ;)

and, we took pictures together. and we are excited about it. and we know more pictures to be taken..and i cant stop talikng about it. *kwang3*

the weekend is here once again.

working on saturday.

took off on sunday and waiting for something to happen.

ouh. chirstmas this monday everybody!!! weeeee!!!

Dear Santa,
i wrote a wish list on a piece of paper.
i slipped it under my pillow so that you can read it later.
i want a Machine that can heal the feelings.
so i can give it to a friend, to help her feel better.
i want a candy playground.
so i can play happily with all my love ones, and eat the candy everytime we gets hungry.
i want a Love remote control.
so that i can change the mood fo an angry, frustrated and hopeless people.
i want a bag of hope.
for those who feels that they have lost everything.
and..
i want a "back to 24.12.2004" time machine..
for myself..

gdnite.

Now Listening To: Memory
Artist: Sugarcult

worlds apart?

2006-12-13T04:36:00.000-08:00

its funny how we get to choose the kind of friends we want,
but in the end, still get what we dont want.

its funny that we want so many things to happen,
but in the end, it didnt turned out as expected.

its funny that you can fall in love with someone,
only to find out that its only a fantasy.

its funny to want things that we cant get,
but still put so much hope on it.

its funny to be loving u,
from a distance,
from a collapsed side of our WORLD.

its funny to be missing you,
and not to let you know about it.

..its funny..
.sad.

saye.awak.kite. salah siape?

2006-12-08T07:07:00.000-08:00

All or Nothing

know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's gotta give
A share in this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair

Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are time it seems to meI
'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me
As thought I'm all that you could see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it

Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell

Cuz I want it all Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it allOr are we just friendsIs this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

Cuz you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room Nowhere inside for me in your life

Cuz I want it all Or Nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fallIt's now or never

Is it al lOr Nothing at all
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it allOr are we just friendsIs this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

~O-Town

an old time favourite song.

Now Listening To: You Make Me Feel
Artist: Westlife

daZE

2006-12-07T06:30:00.000-08:00

SHUT UP.

im BLANK.

la lei la lei ;)

2006-12-04T03:38:00.001-08:00

its Monday again.

Had Principle of Marketing CA in school just now.

went home straight after test. catch 168 from Tampines.

My computer is giving alot of problem recently. it went to the extreme, that all my files, pictures and songs are GONE. *chiken nugget!*

oh well.. whats new about computer virus.. *roll eyes*

OH YES!

POL-ITE games is FINALLY over man!!

been there, done it! *wohoo!*

no more touch games for me until next year, the upcoming Summer Touch League in February 2007. *GRINS*

oh, not forgetting to mention that, the younger players of ITE Touch Team will be playing in the World Of School Touch from 8-10 Dec 2006. ALL THE BEST LADIES. will be there to support. (oh well, im over aged for the competition you see.. )

mama's Birthday on 2nd Dec made her 44 this year. had a little gathering with the aunty's family (not all present though). mama cooked a few special dishes. 10 pieces of stingrays, tom yam soup, and beef curry to go along with the roti kirai.

ms bonch was very greatful to be served alot of good food. she wants more of it, but... (i leave it to your imagination..to whoever knew who ms Bonch is.. ;) )

and then.. later in the evening after aunty and her troops went home, we went to Causeway point to see some stuff.

and then....

and then....

and then....

*argh! i feel so guilty.. having played so hard in all the touch games....!!*

we went to KFC for supper. :l

heh.

wah.. this is what you get if i didnt update on time.

*ok2 rugby girls.. i know you all laughing already.. waiting to shoot me with this entry. dont complain k. oh.. anyway FIRAH.. thats for tagging eh.. haha!!*

ciao.

Now Listening To: I'mma Shine (OST Step Up)
Artist: Youngbloodz

la la la la..

2006-11-28T07:24:00.000-08:00

Oasis Touch got me burned agian. BLACK.
got to the semi's and lost it to UWC 7-0.

previous three games for POL-ITE touch was.. disasterous??.. (erm, i dnt know..)

oh well, school was alrite.

projects was cleared last week. *phew*
presentation for one of it was earlier today. did pretty well. *applause*

2 more games to go. i cant wait. *argh!! help!*

oh, i found a book i bought from popular on 25Mar04, title: "Being a Happy Teenager"

ouh. i didnt know i need that kind of book 2 years ago.. ha ha..
think it helped alot though..

oh well. im so tired already. gd nite!

*oi budak2 rugby.. dnt complaint too much la... *

BYE!

The Musical of : "Joseph & The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat"

2006-11-16T23:00:00.000-08:00

"Joseph & The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat", Friday, 17 Nov '06

"Joseph & The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat", Thursday, 16 Nov '06

it was my very first time catching a Stage Musical Performance last night. performed by the CeMTA pupils, i gota rate the show, 3 out of 5 popcorns. the show was good. what i really like about the show is, the musics and vocals of the singer. sweet and smooth. catched it with Yaya, Asliza & Shikin.

catching it again later tonight with Diana and Emo.(got an extra tix for her. ;))

okay. here comes the weekend once again.

the week was spend in school like normal. skipping the 1st Outdoor class on Wednesday mornings and coming half an hour late for Sports & Wellness.

yesterday's Touch Training session was fun. though didnt train, i felt the excitement. of being punished together, screamed at, laughed at. tee-hee.

Events Management and Outdoor Projects due this coming Monday.

*composing myself now*

The make up climbing course will be held tomorrow m0rning, 9 am to 1 pm. hope it wont rain again. just want to get over it and get back my Saturdays.

alright. happy weekend people!

Now Listening To: I Can't Make Me
Artist: Butterfly Boucher

again

2006-11-13T06:39:00.000-08:00

you said it once before
you love me no more
i believed its true
i trusted you
we went on as friends
promises we made never end
.you stand by me.
.did i stand by you?.
all the past, i let it be
and did the things i always do
.i saw the light in front of me.
.but now, That light, i could'nt see.
it starts to fade again and again
.why does this have to happen, dear friend?.
i got lost again in the dark
i screamed to myself : "what the F**k!"
.i dont blame you.
.believe me, its true.
maybe im in the wrong
without realizing it, it had been going on for so long
.i'm sorry, i kept hurting you.

siti nana

Now Listening To: -
Artist: -

ROLLER COSTER RIDE!!

2006-10-31T04:18:00.000-08:00

oi oi oi!!

hello everybody.

the weekend was spend visiting relatives i have never seen in my entire 20 years. yup.. so u can say that i have a vey very BIG family.

got to the houses vis a "roller-coster" van drove by Papa.
(ATTENTION: People with Heart Attack are advice to take public transport for longer life)

a "tummy-torture" session as many many different food went in.

Back to school on Monday.

had Football training after 3pm class.

calf muscle pulled- very tense, as told by the captain, Suria.

Touch training was cancelled today as Coach Anne had something to attend to.

another football training tomorrow afternoon.

*sha sha. dont blame me for the delay this time k. i cant get acess to www.blogspot.com. vewy difficult..keeps hanging.. ha ha!!

oh yes oh yes!!

we dance at coaching class today. very fun. im loving it... more fun coming our way!!! weeeee!!

okay, till the next next time..

huhu.. ;)

Now Listening To: Lonely September
Artist: Plain White T's

weee!!

2006-10-25T07:21:00.000-07:00

hell0 everybody.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my beloved Muslim friends. :D

today is the second day of Syawal. yup..

Hari Raya Eve, went geylang with the family and relatives. got home at close to 4 am..
had a good bath and then took my half pretty sleep.

Hari Raya:

like all the past years and the traditional way, siblings and i seek forgiveness from our parents. i call it "crying session". hmm, being the youngest in the family, i have to apologise to all of them. i want to say "i hate it", but i cant. cos i feel that this is the only time, it made me say sorry directly to them. i never find it easy to apologise. dont mention about ego. its just that i think, saying "sorry" is one of the hardest thing to do.

headed to Grandmother's (nenek Tampines) at around 12.30 pm. and then back home as our relatives came over. and then the visiting time started.
from Bukit BAtok to Bukit Batok. then to Bukit Batok and Bukit Batok again. yea.. all the Bukit Batok area..
by the time we were at the last house, i think i feel that i can sleep anytime, anywhere, due to EATING TOO MUCH!

same things done everytime i got home. washed up. sleep. and yes... i had my beauty sleep last night that i thought class starts at 12, when it actually starts at 9.

uh-huh..

went back to school for the last class and had Football practice 1.5 hrs after that.
went back home with a swollen arm, due to a knee-bang from i-dont-know-who. scored the first 2 goals at 1st half as a striker. let in a goal from SHASHA .. ha ha.. fun session today..

*phew*

a long one here again and again..

ok.
im out.

daaa!!..

Now Listening To: Welcome To the Balck Parade
Artist: My Chemical Romance

a tale of many-many story

2006-10-18T23:50:00.000-07:00

good afternoon people.

am in school's MLC killing time before going for Football Meeting at 4 pm and Touch training at 4.45pm.

start of the day:

woke up at 7pm, get ready for school
left home at 8.05am
got the damn bloody irritating bus 900 at 8.35am
board 168 at 8.50am
reached Tampines at 9.30am
got text message from fee: "Na, confirm no class eh?"
called almost everyone im close to for confirmation ~ no one picked up (SW lesson)
reached the school bus stop when momo called to confirm
walked to the stadium to meet the girls
went to cafe 2 for project discussion
watched Scary Movie 2 on momo's lap top after that
blogging now with Dennis

Summary for the " start of the day" :

there is no class at all today. *pull my own hair*

She Nerd

2006-10-17T08:01:00.000-07:00

the nerdy me apologise for the 6 days of silence.

a hell of a week last week.
very packed with work and trainings.
tiring.

yeap.

TIRED.
TIRED.
TIRED.
TIRED.
TIRED.

back to school on 16 oct '06.

modules:
Events Management
Principles of Marketing
Elective- coachimg
Elective- Outdoor Adventure

Projects showering the head.

oh ya.

Prize giving ceremony for the NTL super fun.
im late to let you all know this.
read Fefe's blog k. it really helps you. *winks*

haaah.

gd nite already.

Now Listening To: -
Artist: -

Addicted

2006-10-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

im currently addicted to two songs.

"Matchbook Romance, Promise"

"........I feel like I lost everything when you're goneLeft remembering what it's like to have you here with meI thought you should know,You're not making this easy....."

"Cherish, Unappreciated"

".......I'm feeling really unappreciated. You takin` my love for granted, babe. I don't know how much more, I can take from you. You don't do the things you use to do. You don't even say I love you too. And lately I've been feeling, Feeling unappreciated......"

these photos speaks for me.. :D

2006-10-10T10:02:00.000-07:00

" 3 N visits Little India" 06/10/06

"The Show is over"

"Nana & Mama"

"Nana & Nunu"

"The bill @ our 2nd stop. same price, same date"

"This was what we ate for round 2! yummy!"

"I Smile for the food. not the camera!"

"Eh?.. before eating must do work out ar Nunu?"

1st stop: Tekka Hawker ~ "Man, 1 sop isi + indian rojak. Burp!"

"Ladies Night @ Riverside Point, Indonesian Restaurant" 07/10/06

"some of the many many that came for the end of season NTL dinner"

proceed to Harry's after filling the empty spaces in the tummy..

had a great night out with the ladies. cool.. ;)

Now Listening To: Wouldn't It Be Nice

Artist: Beach Boys

Blank

2006-10-04T23:20:00.000-07:00

hi.

last term's result came out yesterday.
grade Bs for both Sports Administration and Industrial Attachment.
GPA: 2.959.

~urgh.

and so, i went out early morning yesterday. Anuty Esah picked me up at my block to accompany Noor Adlina for her medical appointment. spend the whole day at the hospital, waiting for Noor Adlina to be call by the doctor. a very long wait, but its alright..

reached home 20 minutes before break fast. prepared and clear the table..

i was really tired.

and so, i would like to take this opportunity to apologise to those who called in last night.
oh.. i fell asleep when they are talking.. oppss.. how embarassing can THAT be?

will be getting ready for training very soon.

i really hope the ankle will be good.
oh.. please be good..

0k, till the next time i bl0g again.
meantime, be g00d people!

the silent treatment? i'm wondering..

Now Listening To: The Way You Look At Me
Artist: Christian Bautista

Right here Waiting

2006-10-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

i miss Him.

i miss love.

i miss Her.

i miss lovette.

i miss US.

Disappointment.

2006-09-29T06:20:00.000-07:00

.shit.
i really feel shitty.
to read the line ups for tomorrow's semi's.
my name is not there.

due to the injuries.
the ankle.
both this time.

argh.
i hate this feeling.

dear right ankle and left ankle,
please dont disappoint me anymore. i need you to recover as fast as possible. please be good to me? please? i want to play the finals.

<3,
nana

i heard..

2006-09-27T08:46:00.000-07:00

a familiar voice..
telling me that you are the one..
so clear, but nobody's here..
i search for it..
from where it is coming..
i turned and turned..
everything is spinning now..
i stopped as it gets louder in my ear.
i closed my eyes and listen hard.
only to find that its the voice from within..

talk to me about anything..and i shall listen..

2006-09-27T07:21:00.000-07:00

hello.

yesterday's training was alright.
0h well, i just found out today that my fast yesterday was not counted. *duck face*
overall, training was alright.

today, met up with my girls to discuss about a next sem's module ~ Event Management project.
sounds cool? we are hoping it is.. *fake smile*

yup, got started at 3.00pm (estimated time).

went to the Bugis National Library.and there were nunu,momo and mama. breakfast with mama and momo behind Parco Bugis Junction.
the 3 of us talked about our thoughts on some issues like, friendships (mostly), the memories we had at the class chalet and politics (oh..did we?..). :D

hmm, its really nice to be sitting at one table talking about anything. thanks ladies for making this happen. hope to be doing it again some other time. see you girls next week monday or friday. at the meantime, take great care. ;)

love,
nana

Now Listening To: Thats what Friends are For
Artist: Unknown (woops)

for you, from me..

2006-09-25T07:54:00.000-07:00

This song is dedicated to my one and only boyfriend, Suhardi Sapiee.

They say it takes time to get over serious relationships
But I’ve been waiting patiently (patiently)
I’m still stuck on you (stuck on you)
I still picture your face smiling at me (smiling at me)
I’ve made a big mistake (big mistake)
And now I’ve got to face (gotta face)
the consequences of my actions (my actions)
But until your back here in my arms (back in my arms)
Sorry I’ll never have the satisfaction (satisfaction)
I know you know (you know) that I’m sorry(i'm sorry)
I never meant to hurt you
Is there anything that I can do? (i can do)
To make it up to you (make it up)
I’d do anything baby (baby)
cause I’m sorry,I never meant to make you cry (cry)
I don’t want to say goodbye (goodbye)
I’m sorry (i'm sorry) I’m sorry that I lied
Every day that passes I’m missing you more and more
I still remember the first time I set eyes on you (first time i set eyes on you)
I knew this was heaven sent (heaven sent)
that I was destined (destined) To be (to be) with you
And now I’ve messed it up (messed it up)
I pray to god above (i pray to god above)
that you will forgive me (that you will forgive me)
I'm Just take me in your arms (in your arms)
And hold me all night long (all night long)
Sorry And tell me you’ll never leave me...(you'll never leave me baby)
I know you know (you know)
that I’m sorry (sorry)
And I never meant to hurt you
Is there anything that I can do?
To make it up to you (to make it up to you)
I’d do anything baby (I'd do anything baby)
Cause I’m sorry (sorry)
I never meant to make you cry (make you cry)
I don’t want to say goodbye
I’m sorry (sorry) I’m sorry that I lied
I believe that everything happens for a reason
(ooooooooooh ayyyyyyyeaaaayyyy)
I know everybody makes mistakes
And everybody regrets sometimes
Don't let this ruin everything that we had
I don’t want you to forget how much I love you baby (i love you baby)
how much I miss you baby
You get me missing you baby
I'm You mean everything to me
I know you know that I’m sorry (sorry)Sorry
And I never meant to hurt youI
s there anything that I can do?
To make it up to you (to make it up to you babe)
I’d do anything baby (anything baby)
Cause I’m sorry (i'm sorry)
and I never meant to make you cry(make you cry baby)
I don’t want to say goodbye I’m sorry (i'm sorry)
I’m sorry that I lied

~1st Lady

P.S: i miss you. i miss myself. i miss US. i.l.o.v.e.y.o.u.

<3,
siti nana

forgive me

2006-09-24T08:36:00.000-07:00

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now to kill those words for you
Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.
'Cause you were made for me Somehow
I'll make you see
How happy you make me
I can't live this life Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.
And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you
~Evanescence

last few days was messy for me. close friends images came running in my head. they linger infront of my eyes.

diana. shima. J.kecik

but im really grateful that one after another, when they came to mind, i received their smses. except for kecik's. its been so long that i havent hear from her. dnt even talk about seeing her around..

maybe we missed each other. and we have that strong feeling. the bond. well, i dnt knw what people call it, but yea.. it seems like we are connected in some ways.. so, how cool is that?

"ku rasa bagai bara asmara mu telah terpadam. mungkin ini kerana salah ku sendiri. ku cuba memberitahumu aku rindu. namun hati terasa berat dan terasa malu. hakikatnya, malam semalam aku dapat memberitahu mu. tapi, balasan mu agak membuatku terasa kecil. tahu kah kau betapa payahnya untuk aku meluahkan isi hati? untuk memberi kau tahu betapa ku rindu dan maseh menyayangi? tahukah kau, bila ku senyap, tidak bererti aku tidak peduli? tidak bererti ku tidak mengingati? aku maseh aku yang dulu..aku tetap aku.."

1286

2006-09-23T08:13:00.000-07:00

touch rugby was alrite today.
we won 11-1 against UWC. i scored 1.
sprained the ankle at estimated 4 minutes after kick-off.
went back in at sec0nd half.

mazli came to watch (oh well, he didnt see me tried. what a waste. haha..)

mazli drop by to pass me my birthday present. ha ha.. thanks buddy. had dinner wuth him at Toa payoh's Fork & Spoon.

yeap. guess this is all for today.

be working tomorrow..

and oh yes.. ahppy Fasting my love ones.. :)

till next time,
nana

Now Listening To: 6,8,12
Artist: Bryan Mcknight

"counting satrs"

2006-09-22T06:39:00.000-07:00

Hey, I wanna crawl out of my skin
Apologize for all my sins
All the things I should have said to you
Hey, I can't make it go away
Over and over in my brain again
All the things I should have said to you

[Chorus]
Counting stars wishing I was okay
Crashing down was my biggest mistake
I never ever ever meant to hurt you
I only did what I had to. Counting stars again

Hey, I'll take this day by day by day
Under the covers I'm okay I guess
Life's too short and I feel small

[Chorus]

Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again

sugarcult

untitled (III)

2006-09-22T00:37:00.000-07:00

chalet on mon-wed was alright. better than last year's. at least i know i had a memorable 3 days 2 nights with my girlfriends, playing chop-cili-chop, memory game and swimming.
and yes, the water game that fee intriduced. it was my first time playing that. *smile*
girlfriends, thank you for the memories. i really had great time..

i was back to work yesterday.
went out with reena, fyda and of course, the birthday babe, Daeng Nur Amelia. she turns 23. the plan was to watch a film, but cancelled as we thought the movie are a waste of time. so we just hang 0ut at Clarke Quay, eating ice-cream before Syaima and Ash came by.

fasting starts this Sunday. its so sad i could'nt welcome it. Happy Fasting Month dear ones. :)

oh well. have yet to plan anything yet for the weeks to come. i'd probably just stay home and help with the house work. MAYBE. :D

guess this is all for now.

keep on forgiving me for the late updates alright.

"i looked at our pictures. i wished that you will come visit me in my sleep. you didnt. everytime the phone rings, i wished it was you. but its seldom. i've realised it long ago.long before we made the decision. i really miss you. the same when we first fall in love. i know that you are the one.and you are still the one. theres alot more to learnt.about US. i miss you.everytime..incase you never know.."

Now Listening To: What's Left of Me
Artist: Nick Lacey

Telemoviekita

2006-09-10T19:57:00.000-07:00

HARDI&SITI NANA PRESENTS:

telemoviekita

they saw each other at the age of eleven.
only spoke a word or two at 14.
her friends were crazy over him.
they just couldnt stop talking.
some said he melted her everytime he passed by.
some confessed and cried cos she likes him so.
and those were her closest friends.
her bestfriends throughout 5 years in Secondary School.

for 4 years,
she said nothing about him.
although she knew she had something for him since they spoke the first word or two.
she was shy of that feeling.
she was scared she might hurt her bestfriend.

they graduated from school in 2003.
and she thought the feelings will fade away.
she thought he was only a fantasy.
until that day..until that day..
the fantasy became reality.

24.12.2004
he confessed to her through text messages.
and then being shy after that.
she was tongue tight.
she was excited.
she acted cool and acted blur.
*u cant possible say: "OH! I LIKE YOU TOO! WEE!" straight right?*

and so that night
they spoke what was in their heart.
the feelings they that they hide.
the years of silent love that have grown inside.

things were really going and moving in the right way then.
now, she wished that its still the same.
for now, she feels like she's not the girl she used to be.
the girl that she want when they first got together.

she made things hard.
for him.
for her.
for both.

things have been rough at one point.
they are still working on it.
she knows that he love her so.
but she definately loves him too.
but she can be too confusing sometimes.
not knowing what she wants.
she is being selfish.
she is just..
complicated.
lost.
unpredictable.

im sorry for all the things i've put you through.
i still love you the same.
but at this point of time, i really dont know if i can make things right again.
i dont want to make promises that i cant fufilled.
i dont know when this will stop.
but you are still holding on to me.
and i trust you.
i didnt mean to make you wait.
i never want to make you wait.
please.forgive.me.

"if you think i'm cute.."

2006-09-10T08:25:00.000-07:00

Saturday was spend at Turf City. BURNT. BURNT.BURNT.

no comments already la..haiya.

s0, NTL against SRC:

Taniwahs:2(Jo,Nana) SRC:1

READ THE WORDS ON THE TSHIRT.

ITE friendly against OFS:

ITE:5(Fifi(2),Nana(2),Yanti(1)) OFS:0

*good start ladies*

The ankle sprained again during the 2nd half, right after the try.

Worked earlier today before rushing down to Kovan to watch the 2nd half of Paya Lebar Punggol's match against Bishan Arsenal.

Final score: PYP:4 BA:0

Yaya touching down from Vietnam tomorrow.

Make up class is brought back to Tuesday, 11am at HPL.

Received text message from coach Anne:

"Ed & Nana, pls continue 2 ice ur injuries.have a gd rest this week. we will look in2 strengthenin wen u get back :) "

err... strengthening. GREAT.

"wen you get back" ~ does this means... i dnt have to come for training this week? :D

oh well. above photos are just somethings i want you all to see.

if you have seen it..shh..

till next time,
nana

Now Listening To: Wonderful
Artist: Everclear

:D this is 06.09 entry. damn i saved it as DRAFT

2006-09-06T08:36:00.000-07:00

alrite. i skipped blogging yesterday.. woops..

man. i was so tired.

Tuesdays and Thusdays: School Training & Club Training back to back.

but yesterday, i felt one kind of tiredness. dont ask me why. i just felt tired..

so, what happened at school training was, i twisted my left ankle 2 times. its not swollen though.
but the anterior tabialis (as mentioned by Ms Siti Asliza Ansuir) felt pain. till now. so she asked me to do alot of strecthing, icing and taking care of it. :D

Club training as usual. played with the men. good run we had last night. :D

Tomorrow's my IA presentation. 12pm at HPL.

oh ya.. Nurul came earlier to do her slides. :D

and now, to be exact, am waiting for the arrival of Nurdiana Samsudi. she needs to use the computer for her project too.

okay. till i update again.. ;)

.Uncertanity.

Now Listening To: Everytime
Artist: Cascada

helL0

2006-09-04T00:15:00.000-07:00

hi.

i missed updating this blog again and again. and i dont know when i will start updating everyday again.

well, so much things happened. just too much.

Monday 28th, was enough to make me feel so confused. you apologized. although i've texted you back when you texted me on friday, 01sept06, i am still uncertain and not sure of many things. but dont worry. i dont hold any grudges.

Tuesday 29th, trained in school and then rushed to club training like usual.

Wednesday 30th, went to Burdington Building with sister in-law. Accompanied her to collect her $100 Takashimaya shopping voucher. THAT was the 1st time i went out with kakak ipar alone. weird? its true..
and yup, went back by taxi. spend about 0.5hour at abang Edy and Kak Sima new home. and yes, THAT was the first time i saw the house after a few weeks they got the house key.

Catch the 2nd half of the National U19 and some senior womens squad at Bedok Stadium with Fyda and Linda. Had roti pratas for a very late dinner with Linda and Yaya at the 24hours coffeeshop.

Thursday 31st, was forced to get out of bed early to go back to school to represent Touch for Teachers day celebration. im proud to say: I MADE IT ON TIME.
supposed to have a friendly game with Ngee Ann Poly, but it rained.
Club training was also cancelled. but by the time i got the message, i was already outside with my big bag. i WAS out early so ya.. no ones to be blame.. hangout at Lido with yaya, reena, fyda and fad..
got my hair cut to short again. well, think i cant keep it long man..

Friday 1st september, kakak left for her company's trip to Australia.
she will be back early morning tomorrow. come home safely dear. we all miss you..

Saturday 2nd september, woke up early to send Yaya off to the Airport for the U 19 vietnam trip.
had NTL game at turf city against Tipiranahs. we won 6-1?.. hmm..
Zee, Nani and Mas was there to watch the game. thank you all for coming ya..and oh, thank you all for the clips that you all bought for me. :)
met hardi at Toa Payoh. sat and talked..yup..
and oh, and oh!! abang bobby got me a Sony Ericsson K510i.. :D i like. thank you abang!

Sunday 3rd september, NTL game against Blacks at Farrer Park Field. we won again. 10-0 this time.
went home straight.
then later in the evening, went to causeway point with abang booby, kak sima and baby norman. got myself WHITENING LOTION.

phew. this is one hell of a one week list.

okay. have a great start for the week. till next time.

Nana

Now Listening To: No Promises
Artist: Shane Ward

goodbye

2006-08-28T03:24:00.000-07:00

dear ad,

i just want to let you know that i never meant to say goodbye. i am always forced to do it cos you tried so hard to forget me. how is it possible to forget me, to not hold on to me when im still around you? that doesnt make sense. all i want you to be is, happy.

we did it again. we said goodbye again. this is always happening to us. but we keep running back to each other. why? because we know that we are part of each other's life. cos we are friends. cos friends never said goodbye.

but this time, i doubt it will be the same. i doubt we will turn back and reach each other again.
although its hard to believe, its true. this has always been up to you.

dear ad,

the first time we said goodbye, i regretted it alot. the second, i feel the same.
forgive me it happened the third time. and i promise you, this would be the last goodbye.

i never want this to happened. but do i have a choice? i'm always trying to please you. but i kept failing.

i remember all the text messages about being friends forever. about promises to be there.always.

guess its all meant to be broken.
to be forgotten.

its very sad that we started as friend in a nice way but said good bye with valgurities thrown to my face.
i never thought a friend would do that to me. a friend. wow..

thank you so much for all those times. the laughters and the tears ad.

hate me. curse me. if that helps to make you feel better, to cure, to be free.

i wont hate you.

i will.remember you.friend.

nana

thank YOUs

2006-08-13T06:01:00.000-07:00

first and for most, i'd start of by saying THANK YOU so much for all the well wishes from evreryone who had wished me.

all the gifts and surprises i got from some of you is greatly appreciated. thank you so much everyone.

special thanks to:
1) of course, the Boyfriend for the very sweet and romantic surprise He did for my special day. 2 slice of Swensen's ice-cream cake, a candle and two bottle Snapple's grape baverage. and yes, for the Purple Puma Handbag he got me. the firework was a bonus for us as we dont have to stand in the crowd to watch it.
thank you so much dear. i had a great time.

2)Noor Adlina Bte Sainal for the 1day advance birthday treat at Swensen's. but before that the invitation to watch the fireworks @ Esplanade. and yup mama was there too. ;)
thanks you two!

3)Yaya, Nani, Zee, Eunice and Mas. wow. this group of friends really touched my heart.
can you imagine them cooking pasta at night for their "slumber" party over @ Zee's place AND Yaya and Nani actually cycle over to my home @ close to 1.00am to make a "special delivery" of the pasta to me.THANK YOU FRIENDS!

thank you once again people for the well wishes and all the presents!

oh, by the way, we got 3rd for both relays event. yeyey! good effort everybody. :D

what else what else?

hmmm...

oh ya! 6 more days to finish attachment! yippie!

you texted me about her. is there really something going on between she and me? i cant tell..

okay. till whenever i update again.

take care ppl.

Now Listening To: Dont be Mad
Artist: 112 ft. Twista

Someday.

2006-08-06T02:50:00.000-07:00

How the hell did we wind up like this.
Why weren't we ableTo see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Chorus:Someday, somehow gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long asyou know that someday I will
Someday, somehow gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehowgonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long asyou know that someday I will
Someday, somehow gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when

nickleback

..here goes..

2006-08-06T02:33:00.000-07:00

another week past.

the week was another ordinary week, with attachment work + a Track & Fied meet back in school.

took a full day off on tuesday and wednesday for the heats and 200m finals. and a 1/2 day on thursday, for the 400m finals.

didnt do well. 7th for 200m and 5th for 400m. how embarassing that can be? haiyo..

coming up next friday: 4x100 and 4x400m relay finals.

all the best to us.

yup.

5/8/06:
had the warm up game for the upcoming National Touch League with Republic Polytechnic. scored 2 out of 14 tries. all the best to Wantoks Taniwhas. we can do it. yey!

ad was there to watch the game.

and oh. it is Grandma's (papa side) birthday. happy birthday GRANDMA.

and oh oh! i forgot to mention..
DONNA gave me a very advance birthday present! thank you thank you although i felt old 2 weeks before the actual day? ;) thanks sweetie!

what else?..

till then.

"i dont see a reason y this happened..but..sometimes, its just hard to explain"

Now Listening To: Someday
Artist: Nickleback

Still.

2006-08-01T07:49:00.000-07:00

my mind is not at ease.
it keeps on screaming.
am i going crazy?
cos it didnt make sense.
i never want this to happen.
but i could see it coming.
i know,somehow,sometime, this will happen.
i havent given up on us.
never.
i still like you the same.
i still love you the same.
i still do.
i am covered with guilt.
the guilt of making you wait too long.
the guilt of keeping you lonely.
if you could hear what my heart wants to say,
this is what you should hear:
"you are all the things i ever wanted.and you are still the one. if you understand why im doing this,you wouldnt ask me why. the answer is right infront of you.i kept you in the dark for so long."
i thought it would help in a way.
but i realised it made things worst.
i havent change, like you think.
im still me.
i am just so confused sometimes.
im just afraid to hurt you more.
now, all that i want to say is,
you are still the one.

All that I've Got

2006-07-28T05:47:00.000-07:00

okay. hello to everyone reading.
another week have past. tell me, how fast is that.
wohoo!! 3 more weeks to end of Industrial Attachment.

alrite, here is what i have got for today's entry:

(1) Miss Independent.

yup. Fyda Dida was on MC for 3 days. and so there i was in the office with no one to tease. welcome back to work Fyda Dida!!

(2) Touch Rugby

Tuesday's training as usual. 7pm @ OFS.
~got a sweet surprise from Daeng Nur Amelia (YAYA). she made cocktail jelly and passed it to me after work. shared it with dearest Fefe and melisa Wong. *slurp* thumbs up for you yaya. as sweet as you. :) can marry ready. haha!

Wednesday: SRU touch carnival resumes.
~went off from work @ close to 1.30pm. the games was held @ Yio Chu Kang Stadium. Yaya came to support brfore work and so do Noor Adlina Sainal. :D thank you two.
~and oh, if you had read Adlina's entry before mine, oh yes, i wanted to eat rice @ Causeway point's Horizon food court. sorry AD.. i didnt know that it will be like that.. d0nt know that the mee will smell and taste like that..sorry.. :(

Thursday's training as per normal again. 7pm @ OFS.
~did drills and played games.
~Mich injured her knee to the extend that ambulance have to be called in. get well soon Mich. :D

The weekend is here again.

Women's Premier League half way mark this Sunday, 30 July '06.
have to take care of the programmes.
yeap. gota sit and watch 2 matches at a go.
hmm.. i wonder if i will survive.. 4pm to about 9pm? either/or one of us will be the EMCEE for the programmes.

oklah. till the next weekend?
;)
take care people!

siti Nana

Now Listening To: Over
Artist: Lindsay Lohan

Nineteen-Eighty6 HEARTBREAKERS

2006-07-21T21:21:00.000-07:00

HEARTBREAKER. the way i put it.

Here's What I've Got for the Nineteen-Eighty6 babes.

A very Good Afternoon!!
the Weekend is Here baby!!
wohoo!

yup. this is soo me. been killing time in the office doing nothing but sketching AGAIN.
this whole week of IA was not that great. Have been not well + the air-con is getting colder after the air-con man fixed it.

Supervisor not giving any help.
Instructions were not clear and damn, I have no idea what she actually wants.
did the proposal thing to start off the week. got it mailed to her for checking.

and yes, the forever enquiries that i have to do. the phone calls to companies for sponsorships.
and what else? nothing.

and yea!! didnt mention about 15 July 2006.
ok, here are the list:

(1) Noor Adlina Bte Sainal turns 19!! (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!)
(2) Had Youth in Touch @ Turf City from morning till late afternoon.

(3) Diva La Futbol @ Turf City (TOO)

well, i think thats all that i can blog about today.
till next time.
Daaaa!!

Now Listening To: MakeDamnSure
Artist: Taking back Sunday

hate ME

2006-07-19T05:48:00.000-07:00

IT SAYS: love me today. hate me tomorrow.(18 July '06)

i have to block out thoughts of you so i don’t lose my head.they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed.dropping little reels of tape to remind me that i’m alone.playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home.there's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain an ounce of peace is all i want for you. will you never call again?and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?and will you never try to reach me?it is i that wanted space.hate me today.hate me tomorrow.hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.i’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with the one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing i won’t touch again in a sick way i want to thank you for holding my head up late at night while i was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight.you never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take.so i’ll drive so fucking far away that i never cross your mind.and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.hate me today.hate me tomorrow.hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you.hate me in ways.yeah ways hard to swallow.hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.and with a sad heart i say bye to you and wave kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that i had made and like a baby boy i never was a man until i saw your blue eyes crying and i held your face in my hand and then i fell down yelling “make it go away!”just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be,and then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”hate me today.hate me tomorrow.hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you.hate me in ways.yeah ways hard to swallow.hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you.
~Blue October: Hate me

the moment i heard this perfect song over the radio, i know i have fallen in love with it. the lyrics are so powerful. i feel it deep inside.
make time to listen to the song in any ways people.

im checking out the band:(PV) Taking Back Sunday
cool stuff.
good music.
wohoo!!

Now Listening To: Hate Me
Artist: Blue October

that DAy.

2006-07-19T05:38:00.000-07:00

NOKIA 3200. ERASER. FAS RED WHISTLE. FYDA's ERASER & PINK PENCIL.

14 July '06:

see how free i am at work.
see how bored i can be.
5 sketching at a go.
that day.
was a boring day.

Now Listening To: JOAKIM's "I don't wana be lonely no more"
Artist: Singapore Idol Finalist

SITI MAS'AINAH

2006-07-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

break my name, you get different character:

Siti:
(1) nerdy
(2) polite
(3) respectful
(4) girlish
(5) boring

Mas:
(1) silent treatment
(2) thoughtful
(3) smiley
(4) mean
(5)Listener

Ainah:
(1) sweet
(2) matured
(3) lady-ish
(4) thinker
(5) observer
(6) creative
(7) romantic

Nana:
(1) playful
(2) aggressive
(3) sporty
(4) nonsense
(5) calm-cool
(6) joker
(7) hot tempered
(8) unpredictable
(9) nasty
(10) valgur
(11) cheerful

WHAT u see is WHO I AM. so, love me.hate me.

!!

2006-07-12T08:07:00.000-07:00

it is just so fucking irritating if somebody used your creativity for their own use, without feeling anything else, but shameless!!

c'mon!! get a life. moron!

love me.hate me. love me today. hate me tomorrow.

shit.

Now Listening To: -
Artist:-

untitled (II)

2006-07-08T22:35:00.000-07:00

whoa.
when was the last time i updated??
answer: Wednesday, 28 June '06
what happened during the 2 weeks??
answer: too much happened.
(1) Trainings with Wantoks as normal on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
(2) Inter-Secondary School Football 5-a-side carnival & Inter-Secondary School League Finale.
(3) FAS National Mini-Football Carnival for Girls- primary schools. (they are just so adorable.)
(4) Ad's sister wedding. (07/07/06)
(5) The Olympic Run. (08/07/06)

-The Olympic Run

Vanue: Chinese Garden
Reporting Time: 7.30 am
Meeting Time: 7.00 am
Objective: Run/Walk a 3Km distance

the event was not exciting at all. walking and then playing some games at the booths.
what makes my Saturday exciting was: Meeting Nazimah at the event!! woohoo!!
and then we went lunch at Jurong Point Banquet with some of the National Womens soccer girls U16/U17.

and then, this Cute Siti Nur Aini requested to go to the Toys 'R' Us and then to Kiddy Palace.
seeing their behaviour.. -very cute. i mean hey... this secondary school girls.. :D

alrite, monday will be an off day for me. cos my saturday was burnt for this Olympic Run.

hmm. havent seen Love for..1 week?

hope you are doing fine dear. i love you.

Now Listening To: Fly
Artist: Hilary Duff

Sungai Road

2006-06-28T04:41:00.000-07:00

hi.
yup, as mentioned 2 days ago, im on attachment with Football Association of Singapore.
today is only the 3RD day. *fuh* i really really hope i can adapt to the ENVIRONMENT. the task to be done was alrite for me ~ photo-copying, learnt to use the fax machine and some paper work. believe me or not, i have to make enquries too!!
.stress.
y?
cause my english really sucks and i spoke too soft.
well, i tried.
and yup, yeaterday, we knock-out at 5.00pm as there is nothing else to do. a lot of time to kill before training start @ 7pm, OFS. went to Sungai Road with Fyda to look around, and i got myself 5 McDonalds Sesame Street mini bean pals. they are:
(1) NATASHA
(2) OCAR THE GROUCH
(3) COOKIE MONSTER
(4) GROVER &
(5) TELLY MONSTER.

*big angelic grin*

today we end earlier. finish doing work @ around 4.30++ p.m. went home straight as i was feeling tired.

tomorrow will be another boring day in the OFFICE. (argh! i just knew i cant work in office)
..+ training @ 7p.m again, OFS.

on Friday (for an early update), will be a long day @ work as there will be Inter-Secondary School Girls League Carnival '06 from 2.00p.m-4.00p.m. and then it will proceed to the Inter-Secondary School Girls League '06 Finale between: Yishun and Siglap,
followed by Prize-Giving Ceremony and S'League Friday Night's match:
Young Lions VS Home United.
have yet to know who will be the emcee for the event. fyda. or me? *aiyo*
(oh ya.. we have to prepare our own emcee script too..to add to the task-that-we-did list.)

oh well, think this is all for now. have to e-mail some stuff to some company regarding some English Classes for foreigners.

ok ok. thank care sweets!
see you when i see you!

<3
nana

Now Listening To: Dunia Belum Berakhir
Artist: Shaden

weird.

2006-06-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

ok, pics are all jumble up. heh.. lazy to do properly. ;)

"fuyoh..so big sey the elephant skull."
"welcome to my hometown!"

i last updated a few weeks ago. rite? or is it just a week ago? hah. whatever it is, here i am again.

so, last week was my last week in school. here i am already, attached to FAS for Industrial Attachment. fuh. hah. hmm.
am not saying anything yet cos todau's only the first day of work. just hope that i could adapt to the environment as soon as possible. (oh God. Save me please.) it is just so weird to be stuck in the office. the silent office, though its not that quite la..

okay, what happened last week was, on Friday, FINALLY, the Summer Touch League Dinner was held at Far East Plaza Sakura. there were anne, jo, kristy, clara and of course, fifi, laura, sar and myself. :D yum yum. its the adults treat la. so, thanks you all. ;)

oh ya!!
he he. i had a great time on Saturday. guess where i go with Love..
uh huh.. we went to the Zoo!! :D
wow. i remember the last time i stepped into the zoo was a few years back.. no no.. many many years back.. ha ha..and now, its an all new image. Love and i covered ALL the places. *phew* a very long and enjoyable walk thiugh our legs are pealding for help.
..and well, ya.. Polly came along to snap us. :)
*NOTE:
dear Yang, thank you for the treat. i really had great fun dear. thank you so much. hmm, lets see.. where's our next stop? Sentosa? KTV? Ice Skating? Picnic-ing? ha ha.. my treat this time k? ;) love you.

alrite, gota do a little of work for tomorrow. update agian if i got the time.
till next time,
nana

Now Listening To: Akustatik
Artist: OAG

g00d morning!!

2006-06-14T20:51:00.000-07:00

damn.
very draggy to get 0ut of bed this m0rning. (as usual)
got my ass out and then wash up and then get ready and then went out.
journey to sch00l was tutting long and slow.
walked to school from Simei only to get a call from Nunu that morning class was actually cancelled this week and the lecturer FORGOT to inform us. (thanks ya)
yup. so i met with some of the girls and walked with them back to Simei- East Point for breakfast.
yea. so here i am in the next class, CDP blogging.
class ends @ 1 p.m today. great.
but oh.. OFS training @ 7p.m later. (Shit)
a long and slow week.
believe it or not, 2 more weeks to my attachment.
haiya. so sleepy.
till next time,
Nana

Now Listening To: -
Artist: -

:)

2006-06-13T00:38:00.000-07:00

the weather's wet lately.
today's tuesday, 13/06/06.

last saturday, 10/06, went out with as,kiknkin and sophia to Causeway point to catch X-Men III before i went to work. wow. cool. really had a good day. snap ourselves at the neoprint shop.( i so like the photos babes!!) oh well, its the '86 chicks if yiu noticed. ;)

and the following day, sunday 11/06, work starts at 11am. went to catch the Omen with Love at Causeway Point again. :)
yea, L0ve bought a Polaroid Camera ~ for us. so sweet. thanks dear.
and oh, above is the Pics that we took after the movie, before lunch @ KFC. :D

Now Listening To: Buttons
Artist: PCD

feEliNg:

2006-06-09T06:52:00.000-07:00

d0WN.
bLuE.
.em0Ti0nAL.
.SAD.
ache
pAin
.hURt
.cOnfuSeD

Now Listening To: My Immortal
Artist: Evanescence

memories. :) (aww..so sweet..)

2006-06-04T06:47:00.000-07:00

Hidah, Myself and Laura @ Cineleisure Pastamania. 03/06/2006
touch rugby girls team 2006. after they announced the game will be postponed due to heavy rain. (..3 seniors and the 5 months old ladies in rugby..) 01/06/2006

sports museum trip, Wednesday 31/05/2006
UP0504P

Track & field meet 06 pics

2006-06-04T06:27:00.000-07:00

gold medalist for 4X400m A girls.
the 4X100m gold medalist, A Girls.
heh.. myself with my medals. ;D

been busy with training lately.
havent met the Boyfriend this week.
0kay. So, here are some pics to make up for the missing entries. (cos im too lazy to type out what happened. ~bleah! )

Now Listening To: Case of The Ex
Artist: Mya

untitled.

2006-05-29T09:20:00.000-07:00

the first Wantoks training with the Australian coach today. had fun training.
yesterday's Blacks Fun Touch was okay. win 3, lose 3, draw 2 in the womens open category.
my temper was really bad yesterday. i was so vulgar.i was not me. i'm sorry i showed the other side of siti mas'ainah. i love you all. & hope you all still love me too.
well,i got hooked to Rihanna's latest single, Unfaithful. a very touchy and powerful song.

UnFaitHfuL.
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company
Hes more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because I'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true
and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I dont wanna do this anymore
I dont wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I dont wanna hurt him anymore
I dont wanna take away his life
I dont wanna be...
a murderer
I feel it in the air
as Im doing my hair
preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
Hes here reluctantly
as if Im gonna be out late
I say I wont be long
Just hanging with the girls
A liar didnt have to tell
Because we both know
where Im about to go
and we know it very well
cause I know that he knows Im unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I dont wanna do this anymore
I dont wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I dont wanna hurt him anymore
I dont wanna take away his life
I dont wanna be...
a murderer
His trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I dont wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)
I dont wanna do this anymore
I dont wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I dont wanna hurt him anymore
I dont wanna take away his life
I dont wanna be...
a murderer (a murderer)
No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah
~rihanna

counting down the days to the end of the 1 week training:
6

Now Listening To: Unfaithful
Artist: Rihanna

Stop. SECURITY Check.

2006-05-26T23:42:00.000-07:00

DANCE MANIA was a kick-ass!!
everyone seems to have great time dancing to the superb music. it was inpressive that alot of the student came.
i was there to help out. the ~security~.
As and Kin-kin were there too. you both rock!!! wohoo!! thanks for accompanying me. *hugs*
free flow started @ around 11.30p.m.
looking forward for more of this fund raising event.
i had great night although was tired from the everyday race.
reached home at close to 3.am.

alright. gota ciao for work soon. happy weekend people!!

1 week. packed and tired. sorry dear. miss you. love you.

track & field meet 2006

2006-05-26T23:11:00.000-07:00

wohoooo!
the race is finally over.
grateful and happy to get a medal for each event i took up.
400m ~ 2nd
1500m ~ 3rd
4x100m ~ 1st
4x400m ~ 1st
plus a last minute registration for 200m race finals got me another medal in the 3rd position. thanks to Ms Kristy who called Fee 10 minutes before the race.
great efforts were put in and everyone has a happy and enjoyable race. congrats eveybody! :D

Now Listening To: Blind
Artist: Lifehouse

COMING up

2006-05-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

the heats for 400m will be @ 3.40p.m today
the next 2 event coming up this wednesday:
1500m Finals
4X100m relay Heats. (Fefe,Mel,Mama & Myself)
smiling. -(faking it)-

small wonders

2006-05-21T19:29:00.000-07:00

last few days since i last updated, many things happened.

OFS training on Thursday was alright. had dinner with Fee and Mel at Far East KFC and laughed like there is no tomorrow. the slip-tongue-disease.

Holiday on Friday was supposed to be a HOLIDAY for me. missed going to Sentosa with Fanana and Emo. so stayed home to look after the baby. later that day, after everyone came home, the Boyfriend came over.watched the telly-V together with the Family.

walkhaton.
saturday morning burnt. got to school @ 8a.m with Nunu and Mama. help set up a little bit of here and there. played alot, but i still think that its best if i was @ home sleeping cos attendance is NOT compulsory!! [BEEP]

X-eyes.
rushed home after the walkhaton event. sat for awhile infront of the entertainment-box. got ready for work.
later @ the bus stop,thinking to myself: "wah. late ready.15 more minutes to work but bus havent come yet. call chirstina! call chirstina!!"
Nana: "hi Chirstina. siti here. hey, i'll be 10-15 mins late leh..."
Chirstina: "huh? how come no one tell me you work today??"
-PAUSED-
Nana: "you just come ar? you sure anot i not working today? never mind, im still coming to double confirm my schedule."
-CLICK-
sh t. i was wrong!! was supposed to work on the next day actually. [doink]

Sally called right after i made my moved from the pushcart. she wanted to meet so she decides. going town to catch a movie.-VOICE. i went home to change my footwear. waited for 1/2hr for her call. got a text msg instead from her. she called it off.
what a Saturday!

did the closing on sunday. not many customer.

Now Listening To: Almost
Artist: Bowling for Soup

you.me.US.

2006-05-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

courtesy of princess naz.

it has always been you.
it has always been me.
and it has always been us.
together.
you were there when i d0nt feel right.
although i never show what is behind the smiles,
seeing you had made me realise...
that i am not alone.
that you are the reasons i am still standing strong.
and with y0u i had m0ved along.
with you i laughed.
with you i cried.
with you, it made me whole.
and with you,my sorrows fade away.

dear friends,
nunu,mama and momo.
thank you so much for being part of me. in many ways, (maybe) without you girls realising, you had helped me alot. most of which is not verbally, but silently. the actions.
though sometimes we used harsh words (nunu & mama) to tease one another, we still got along very well.. infact.. the bond between us getting stronger each day.
to momo, you had helped me in some ways. the silent touch.the unspoken words.(you know mo? i think sometimes,we really think the same way.and we dnt have to say it out. ;) ) cool isn't it?
yea.. thank you all girlfriends.
(to those i didnt mention, please dont get upset. one by one k? ;) )

-------------------------------------------------------------------------

the body's aching from the first fitness training with WANTOKS yesterday.
fartlak.sprints.stride.sprint again.stride again. 1..2..3.. sets.. (adoi...)

psst..
i skipped SW today. could not wake up la..
went for class @ 12 though..
played capteh after calss till late afternoon.. went home with the girls..
a "laughing Day" for me. alot of funny things happened. sigh. wished the day never end.
well, looking forward for more of TODAY.
thank you friends for making my day.
goodnight.
shh..
and oh.. love you boyfriend! *

Now Listening To: Hips Don't Lie (UP0504P current Fav.)
Artist: Shakira

cRashed.

2006-05-15T21:41:00.000-07:00

im crashed.
inside.
the feelings never lied.
pleased.
sad.
anger.
the secrect in the heart, only i know.
when i want to cry,
i hold it back.
i look forward and say:
"yesterday's gone.today is a new day."
sometimes.
sometimes it is just so hard.
when i tried to push the confusion aside,
small little things came by.
and this small little things lead to the big big things.
and the big big things leads to more confusion,
and the confusion leads to heartache,
and the heartache leads to tears.
and finally the tears leads to sleep.

Now Listening To: Stay
Artist: Lisa Loeb

Strange & Beautiful

2006-05-12T21:58:00.000-07:00

Thurday's class end @ 1.30p.m.
got chicken fied rice to feed Ms Bonch.
got change after 1/2-1 hr for track and field meet training with my girls for the 4x100 relay.
tarining starts @ 5.30p.m later that day.
not as many turned up.
we hold back the tears everytime. we tried so hard to keep it hidden. but when it finally poke us,its time to reveal what you hold back.

Friday was Vesak Day, and so it was a public holiday. went to work @ Bugis @ 3 p.m and got irritated by the "Human-traffic" @ the basement.
have to train a new assistant, Girona. 17 years old, studying in ITE Bishan, COS, 1st year. taught her the prices and the way to make and alter the strings. hopefully she can cope with the things and get familiarise soon. Maybel [the boss] asked me to see how Girona do her work and how she serve the customer + her conduct. not bad for a start i must say. except that she is still shy. well, i'm like that too when i first started. slowly k.. ;)

13/05/2006
Happy Birthday PAPA!!
:D
yup today's papa's bitrhday. weeee!!
may he be happy with what he got and keep on being a good PAPA.

"sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first. sometimes, the first thing you want never comes.and i know,the waiting is all you can do. sometimes." - Strange & Beautiful, Aqualung

Now Listening To: Potion For Foxes
Artist: Rilo Kiley

TIGER,SINGTEL,SOPHIA,ASLIZA. :)

2006-05-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

Monday, 08/05
Sophia TIGER.
[last week, i have been talking to my friends about this shoe brand: SEAHORSE, for running.
surprisingly, most of them haven't heard or seen it before. so, i described to them how it looks like.]
this is a tale. a tale of a girl name Sophia.
met some of the girls early @ 10.00a.m today although class starts @ 1.00p.m.
reason being: to play street soccer in school.
and so we played under the crouching sun, which made my head spin,eyes blur and breathing difficult.
this is a conversation between Sophia and myself:
sophia (with the most confident tone and face): Eh ya Nana! i saw the TIGER shoe already! Quite nice eh.. (NOD HEAD)
Nana (Paused, blur face): huh? TIGER?
Sophia: Ya. the one you talk about the other time. you said you want to buy that one?...for running...TIGER right the brand?
Nana ( laughing like siow with the rest): Sophia? it is SEAHORSE.

MORAL of the story: Ask softly before saying out. kwang3 ;p (psst..sophia? *wink*)

Occured on the same day, now between ASLIZA and MYSELF.
[Asliza is using the same model handphone as me. she then took my handphone, turn it around and ask me to guess which one is mine.]
Asliza: okay na.. which one is yours?
so, i pointed out to my handphone, smiling.
Asliza: no wrong.
Nana (pointing @ the same HP again): this one.
Asliza (still denying): Noooooo....
Nana (paused,start laughing): Asliza? you know why i'm confident? cos mine doesnt have a SINGTEL sticker behind!!!

too bad As, FIFI caught y0u too. :D

MORAL of the story: IF you want to lie, hide the evidence. *wahahaha!!* ;p

Tuesday, 09/05
Meeting the New People.
Touch Rugby training with the May intake people starts today. attendence was very encouraging and hopefully, it stays like that till the Seniors graduate.
kill time playing capteh with Kinkin,As,Shahidah and Nazimah.
had fun today. really.

Wednesday, 10/05 [Today]
Thank You Dears.
class starts @ 9.00p.m today. eventually, came 25 minutes late. first class was SW. run 2 rounds of the track, did a circuit endurance thingy and hen played capteh again till class end.
after class ends @ 3.00p.m today, stayed for an hour in school. played a little bit more of capteh and had a mini cracker party with Sophia and the rest of the gang. haha!!
it was really best. had great fun this 3 days. thank you so much dear friends. i love you all.

Now Listening To: Breath
Artist: Michelle Branch

-Special-

2006-05-05T08:18:00.000-07:00

dear blog,
LOVE just left about 45 minutes ago. he had drop by to pass me something pending for our 1st anniversary, which was last year.
it was something special i must say. although our 1st anniversary is over, the gift made me feel that today is the actual day.
a printed design of our name and his own design for the cover of the CD that he burnt is really very pretty. the 'casing' of the CD, which actually has our photo printed on it is really very nice. and at the back of it is all the song titles, which most of it is on my favourite list. + ALL the song lyrics been printed out in his format. the colors used is my favourite [not purple. but brown + pale yellow]. very very nice.
well, if you think LOVE use the normal CD casing, [TET!] you are wrong. you will understand when you see it. :D
sayang, I LOVE IT. thank you so much.. & i love you. *'',*

Now Listening To: One In A Million
Artist: Bosson

back to school

2006-05-05T07:48:00.000-07:00

here i go again.
back in class.
meet my girlfriends.
feeling the bond between us will last.
the jokes keep getting better.
i hope that the bond keeps growing stronger.
here i am again.
still simple and plain.
i'm back to school.

Sunday,30 Apr - Monday,01 May 2006
stayed home.
monday was a public holiday. stayed home again although its the last day of the term break. waited for an angel to text me out, but they did'nt hear my call. OR maybe they are just busy.

Tuesday, 02 May 2006
the first day of 2nd year. reported @ 9.00a.m as told by Mr Koh Han Chow. class was released @ 10.00a.m. had a 4hrs break before the last class of the day starts. kill time with the girls @ Tampines Mall and slacking @ Coffee Bean @ Century Square. went back to school for lesson after that.

Wednesday, 03 May 2006
involved in the CCA Recruitment Day for the May-intake students. in between time, cabot for a while and went swimmimg with some classmates in school. went back to help out til the closing time..

Thursday, 04 May 2006
class ended @ 1.00p.m supposingly but was released a little early. like the last few days, walked to Simei Station with the girls to head for home.
accompanied Kakak to Mustafa Centre to look for her thing. eventually, what we brought home was 2 Hindi DVD, some hair clips and hair band. :D
i just realized that it has been quite some time that i haven't go out with kakak.. hmm..

Now Listening To: How Does It Feel
Artist: Sugarcult

last day

2006-04-29T23:49:00.000-07:00

[sigh]
am i gonna be stuck @ home again today?
everyone had gone out. Abg Lan and baby Norman is sleeping.
argh. this is so depressing.
LoVE is out working since morning.
some friends are probably busy with work or their own things.
shall i go out to the library?
its the last day of the school holidays. [though tomorrow is a publiblic holiday too..]
hmm.. :/

have to do the house work again.
the clothes is hang outside after mama washed.
have to clean the house. before everyone else come home.

the cable for the telly-V is out of service for a while as Big Brother had taken the wire to exchange for a new one.

think i'm cleanning up now la...
then sleep..

oh ya..
almost forgot.
we won the finals.
well, ya..we won.
excited.just a little.
no trophies.
instead, they will be giving us a T-shirt and Viser [or however they spell it.]
disappointed.
but hey.. happy also la.. :D

PROMISE
what would you say if I asked you not to go.to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me.would you take my hand and never let me go?promise me you'll never let me go.and now the stars aren't out tonight,but neither are we to look up at them.why does hello feel like goodbye? these memories can't replace,these wishes I wished and dreams I chased.take this broken heart and make it right.i feel like I lost everything when you're gone.left remembering what it's like to have you here with me.i thought you should know,you're not making this easy.i never thought I'd be the one to say:"please don't, well please don't leave me".i feel like I lost everything when you're gone.left remembering what it's like to have you here with me.i thought you should know,you're not making this easy.take my hand and never let me go,promise me...you'll never let go.make this last forever.i feel like I lost everything when you're gone.left remembering what it's like to have you here with me.i thought you should know, you're not making this easy.i'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you.
-this was send to me by a friend via e-mail, Thursday, February 2,2006

Now Listening To: Photograph
Artist: Nickleback

holidays

2006-04-28T07:16:00.000-07:00

had strawberry-vanilla ice cream with honey nut with almond toppings for breakfast today. [slurp].
today is Friday. nothing that i had done. stayed at home. [again. and forever..][roll eyes]

man! i didnt have an exciting holiday except for the games on Saturdays.
..and the day i skipped training with Fifi. [sigh] .. plus+ the day i went out with Love. :D
..and the Mustafa Centre trip with the Family.. [guess it isnt that bad after all eh..hmm..]

well, now that i'm a young adult, i dont actually look forward to the hols..except when i really need a time break from the projects.
guess this is life..

the holidays.
it is just so scary sometimes.
you dont know what to do.
it is complete boredom.
well, maybe its not the holidays.
it is just me.
i'm a boring person.
ha ha.
this is funny.
this is stupid.
to complaint about everything.
but i blame myself.
ha ha.
this is crazy.
total insane.
to be complaining almost about everything.
but the fault is mine.
..haiya! im so bored la!..

tomorrow is the Final. Against SMU. tomorrow is the day to get even with them, hoping to grab the champ title for ITE. yup! all the way ladies!

Now Listening To: I'm a Terrible Person
Artist: Rooney

the 1 week story

2006-04-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

Saturday, 22 April 2006
Sudden-Death.

Yes!! We are in the final!
Woke up this morning with a very bad cough and running nose. I was a coughing machine in the bus from home bus stop to interchange and back again. Was lucky I didn’t coughed in train cos I don’t wish to be the loud speaker, and get everyone’s attention.
Rushed my ass to Toa Payoh and missed the 11.30 shuttle bus that I’m supposed to take. Damn. I owe the team drinks. Mel too. Dearest Mel brought cough syrup for me which I actually gulp in the bus and she is sweet to even make a I-don’t-know-what drink for the throat too. To be honest, it tasted like Mama Lemon, the dishes liquid soap. Thanks eh Mel. Appreciate all this. Thank you.
This game against Bedok King again was very pressurizing. They were leading us by 2 points but eventually Ms Kristy and Anne worked it out to make it even.
I guess the final score was 5 all. And then we proceed to the sudden death, where after every 2 minutes, 1 player will be taken out from the pitch. Whoever try it, is the winner. Down to 4, and there is still no try. Down to 3, and the game is getting more pressurizing. [imagine this. 3 players from each side playing on the 6 men pitch, and we had to cover the whole stretch of the pitch.] Breathing was getting harder for me. I couldn’t focus and I don’t know what I’m doing at some point. Worst of all, our game was the center of attraction! Waiting teams to use the pitch went “Awwww!!“ and “Argh” every time there is a drop ball or a touch. shit. I hate to be in this situation. Who does? Even Anne was scared okay. Everyone was until JO became our HERO!! [phew] thanks Jo.
Stayed a little longer with Darling Fifi @ Turf City to watch Demons [Baby-Toks] against NTU.
And off I go to the shuttle bus Q. saw Leo there and we sat and talk about the games while waiting for the bus. Well, Leo is a Touch player from RP. [..and she reminds me of somebody. Especially the hair. Hmm.]
Wow. Am really excited for the finals. :D
Another long entry I’ve got here. Well, I’m just excited I guess. ;)
Okay. Till then, -cough cough-. Woops. Sorry. *kiss* ;D

“Tonight I don't know where you are.But I know where you should beSo here I am all aloneWhen you should be with me” - Mest, Chelsea

Now Listening To: Girl Fight Remix
Artist: Brooke Valentine

other Updates.

Sunday, 23 April
Met with the Boyfriend, or I rather call him LOVE to Marina Square. Spend the day walking around the shopping centre and sitting outside the building talking.
It has been quite some time that Love and I spend a day together since I was busy with projects and training and games while he was busy with his own school project. Now that everything’s over for the both of us, im glad that we could spend a little time together. [well, though we didn’t spent much time seeing each other often, at least, we got to hear each other over the cell phone.]
And yea, the day was fun for me. Teased Love like I always did. [angelic smile].
Sat at the bay for a moment and then went home as we both got to work the next day.
Hey yang, thank you for the day. Had great time with you. And it has always been good. Thank you. By the way, its really nice to see you got “irritated-frustrated” when I teased you. Well, don’t blame me.. You make me do it.. *wink*.

Monday, 24 April
When I woke up in the morning, the first thing that was in my head was - TRAINING. Yup, I skipped training for work, and I felt awful to miss training.
Open shop at 1030hrs. Haven’t made any sales only until around 2p.m+. it really scare the hell out of me. I would not want to imagine not doing any sales for my shift. It’s a total nightmare. At the end of my working shift, well, not much but acceptable sales was made. Thank you GOD.

Tuesday, 25 April
Got to work again this morning.
The same thing, only managed to break the egg at around 2p.m+. I was lucky that my first customer brought quite a lot. But at the same time, this China National customer of mine create awareness to me. [Well you see, I had been robbed of $98 when working at PS last year by 2 China man and was close to be robbed again at TM but I was careful by that time. Fuck this robbers!]
End work a little late today as Felicia got something to attend to. Melissa came over to my work place and then we went training at OFS together.
At training, there was light faulty. But we still carry on with the play.
Well, someone came by as she was with one of the girl before training starts. Haven’t seen her since mid-march. We didn’t even spoke a word to each other. Worst part was, we took the same train and alighted at the same stop.
It hurts to see her. Especially now. She looked so different. Maybe because of the medication she have to take. I wish it hadn’t been this way between the two of us. I wish I was never misunderstood.

“Counting stars wishing I was okay.
Crashing down was my biggest mistakeI never ever meant to hurt youI only did what I had to Counting stars again” - Counting Stars, Sugarcult

Now Listening To: Counting Stars
Artist: Sugarcult

Wednesday, 26 April (Today)
stayed @ home.

the holidays is ending.. havent gotten any new or good experiences... what a waste.

Now Listening To: No, Not Now
Artist: Hot Hot Heat

whatmyheartsays

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ANNOUNCEMENT.

Introducing...

When Love and Hate Collide

sometimes..

Dear Lie

the other Side

ordinary

There's Plenty to Share.

Strike 3

Demi Waktu

3 days

New Start

One day..

Unwell

Elle

Last Night

Breaking

STRIKE 2

STRIKE 1

That Moment

mixture

been waiting

Missing an Angel

Long Walk Home

memories.

Let me:

DONT MATTER

there were..

silence is easy

Last Week

back to school

From Footie to Escape

here i go AGAIN

Coming Up

Here we are..

whats COOKING today:

Final Showdown: 2nd FIBA ASIA YOUNG WOMEN CHAMPIONSHIP 2006 (20th-27th December)

if you could see.

look outside.look inside. do you see me?

worlds apart?

saye.awak.kite. salah siape?

daZE

la lei la lei ;)

la la la la..

The Musical of : "Joseph & The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat"

again

ROLLER COSTER RIDE!!

weee!!

a tale of many-many story

She Nerd

Addicted

these photos speaks for me.. :D

Blank

Right here Waiting

Disappointment.

i heard..

talk to me about anything..and i shall listen..

for you, from me..

forgive me

1286

"counting satrs"

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Telemoviekita

"if you think i'm cute.."

:D this is 06.09 entry. *damn i saved it as DRAFT*

helL0

goodbye

thank YOUs

Someday.

..here goes..

Still.

All that I've Got

Nineteen-Eighty6 HEARTBREAKERS

hate ME

that DAy.

SITI MAS'AINAH

!!

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:D this is 06.09 entry. damn i saved it as DRAFT