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Friday, September 29, 2006Disappointment.
.shit.
i really feel shitty. to read the line ups for tomorrow's semi's. my name is not there. due to the injuries. the ankle. both this time. argh. i hate this feeling. dear right ankle and left ankle, please dont disappoint me anymore. i need you to recover as fast as possible. please be good to me? please? i want to play the finals. <3, nana posted by heartthatcries at 6:20 AM Wednesday, September 27, 2006i heard..
a familiar voice..
telling me that you are the one.. so clear, but nobody's here.. i search for it.. from where it is coming.. i turned and turned.. everything is spinning now.. i stopped as it gets louder in my ear. i closed my eyes and listen hard. only to find that its the voice from within.. posted by heartthatcries at 8:46 AM talk to me about anything..and i shall listen..
hello.
yesterday's training was alright. 0h well, i just found out today that my fast yesterday was not counted. *duck face* overall, training was alright. today, met up with my girls to discuss about a next sem's module ~ Event Management project. sounds cool? we are hoping it is.. *fake smile* yup, got started at 3.00pm (estimated time). went to the Bugis National Library.and there were nunu,momo and mama. breakfast with mama and momo behind Parco Bugis Junction. the 3 of us talked about our thoughts on some issues like, friendships (mostly), the memories we had at the class chalet and politics (oh..did we?..). :D hmm, its really nice to be sitting at one table talking about anything. thanks ladies for making this happen. hope to be doing it again some other time. see you girls next week monday or friday. at the meantime, take great care. ;) love, nana Now Listening To: Thats what Friends are For Artist: Unknown (woops) posted by heartthatcries at 7:21 AM Monday, September 25, 2006for you, from me..
This song is dedicated to my one and only boyfriend, Suhardi Sapiee.
They say it takes time to get over serious relationships But I’ve been waiting patiently (patiently) I’m still stuck on you (stuck on you) I still picture your face smiling at me (smiling at me) I’ve made a big mistake (big mistake) And now I’ve got to face (gotta face) the consequences of my actions (my actions) But until your back here in my arms (back in my arms) Sorry I’ll never have the satisfaction (satisfaction) I know you know (you know) that I’m sorry(i'm sorry) I never meant to hurt you Is there anything that I can do? (i can do) To make it up to you (make it up) I’d do anything baby (baby) cause I’m sorry,I never meant to make you cry (cry) I don’t want to say goodbye (goodbye) I’m sorry (i'm sorry) I’m sorry that I lied Every day that passes I’m missing you more and more I still remember the first time I set eyes on you (first time i set eyes on you) I knew this was heaven sent (heaven sent) that I was destined (destined) To be (to be) with you And now I’ve messed it up (messed it up) I pray to god above (i pray to god above) that you will forgive me (that you will forgive me) I'm Just take me in your arms (in your arms) And hold me all night long (all night long) Sorry And tell me you’ll never leave me...(you'll never leave me baby) I know you know (you know) that I’m sorry (sorry) And I never meant to hurt you Is there anything that I can do? To make it up to you (to make it up to you) I’d do anything baby (I'd do anything baby) Cause I’m sorry (sorry) I never meant to make you cry (make you cry) I don’t want to say goodbye I’m sorry (sorry) I’m sorry that I lied I believe that everything happens for a reason (ooooooooooh ayyyyyyyeaaaayyyy) I know everybody makes mistakes And everybody regrets sometimes Don't let this ruin everything that we had I don’t want you to forget how much I love you baby (i love you baby) how much I miss you baby You get me missing you baby I'm You mean everything to me I know you know that I’m sorry (sorry)Sorry And I never meant to hurt youI s there anything that I can do? To make it up to you (to make it up to you babe) I’d do anything baby (anything baby) Cause I’m sorry (i'm sorry) and I never meant to make you cry(make you cry baby) I don’t want to say goodbye I’m sorry (i'm sorry) I’m sorry that I lied ~1st Lady P.S: i miss you. i miss myself. i miss US. i.l.o.v.e.y.o.u. <3, siti nana posted by heartthatcries at 7:54 AM Sunday, September 24, 2006forgive me
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said But I didn't mean to hurt you I heard the words come out I felt that I would die It hurt so much to hurt you Then you look at me You're not shouting anymore You're silently broken I'd give anything now to kill those words for you Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you." But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah. 'Cause you were made for me Somehow I'll make you see How happy you make me I can't live this life Without you by my side I need you to survive So stay with me You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry. And you forgive me again You're my one true friend And I never meant to hurt you ~Evanescence last few days was messy for me. close friends images came running in my head. they linger infront of my eyes. diana. shima. J.kecik but im really grateful that one after another, when they came to mind, i received their smses. except for kecik's. its been so long that i havent hear from her. dnt even talk about seeing her around.. maybe we missed each other. and we have that strong feeling. the bond. well, i dnt knw what people call it, but yea.. it seems like we are connected in some ways.. so, how cool is that? "ku rasa bagai bara asmara mu telah terpadam. mungkin ini kerana salah ku sendiri. ku cuba memberitahumu aku rindu. namun hati terasa berat dan terasa malu. hakikatnya, malam semalam aku dapat memberitahu mu. tapi, balasan mu agak membuatku terasa kecil. tahu kah kau betapa payahnya untuk aku meluahkan isi hati? untuk memberi kau tahu betapa ku rindu dan maseh menyayangi? tahukah kau, bila ku senyap, tidak bererti aku tidak peduli? tidak bererti ku tidak mengingati? aku maseh aku yang dulu..aku tetap aku.." posted by heartthatcries at 8:36 AM Saturday, September 23, 20061286
touch rugby was alrite today.
we won 11-1 against UWC. i scored 1. sprained the ankle at estimated 4 minutes after kick-off. went back in at sec0nd half. mazli came to watch (oh well, he didnt see me tried. what a waste. haha..) mazli drop by to pass me my birthday present. ha ha.. thanks buddy. had dinner wuth him at Toa payoh's Fork & Spoon. yeap. guess this is all for today. be working tomorrow.. and oh yes.. ahppy Fasting my love ones.. :) till next time, nana Now Listening To: 6,8,12 Artist: Bryan Mcknight posted by heartthatcries at 8:13 AM Friday, September 22, 2006"counting satrs"
Hey, I wanna crawl out of my skin
Apologize for all my sins All the things I should have said to you Hey, I can't make it go away Over and over in my brain again All the things I should have said to you [Chorus] Counting stars wishing I was okay Crashing down was my biggest mistake I never ever ever meant to hurt you I only did what I had to. Counting stars again Hey, I'll take this day by day by day Under the covers I'm okay I guess Life's too short and I feel small [Chorus] Counting stars again Counting stars again Counting stars again Counting stars again Counting stars again sugarcult posted by heartthatcries at 6:39 AM untitled (III)
chalet on mon-wed was alright. better than last year's. at least i know i had a memorable 3 days 2 nights with my girlfriends, playing chop-cili-chop, memory game and swimming.
and yes, the water game that fee intriduced. it was my first time playing that. *smile* girlfriends, thank you for the memories. i really had great time.. i was back to work yesterday. went out with reena, fyda and of course, the birthday babe, Daeng Nur Amelia. she turns 23. the plan was to watch a film, but cancelled as we thought the movie are a waste of time. so we just hang 0ut at Clarke Quay, eating ice-cream before Syaima and Ash came by. fasting starts this Sunday. its so sad i could'nt welcome it. Happy Fasting Month dear ones. :) oh well. have yet to plan anything yet for the weeks to come. i'd probably just stay home and help with the house work. MAYBE. :D guess this is all for now. keep on forgiving me for the late updates alright. "i looked at our pictures. i wished that you will come visit me in my sleep. you didnt. everytime the phone rings, i wished it was you. but its seldom. i've realised it long ago.long before we made the decision. i really miss you. the same when we first fall in love. i know that you are the one.and you are still the one. theres alot more to learnt.about US. i miss you.everytime..incase you never know.." Now Listening To: What's Left of Me Artist: Nick Lacey posted by heartthatcries at 12:37 AM Sunday, September 10, 2006Telemoviekita
HARDI&SITI NANA PRESENTS:
telemoviekita  they saw each other at the age of eleven. only spoke a word or two at 14. her friends were crazy over him. they just couldnt stop talking. some said he melted her everytime he passed by. some confessed and cried cos she likes him so. and those were her closest friends. her bestfriends throughout 5 years in Secondary School. for 4 years, she said nothing about him. although she knew she had something for him since they spoke the first word or two. she was shy of that feeling. she was scared she might hurt her bestfriend. they graduated from school in 2003. and she thought the feelings will fade away. she thought he was only a fantasy. until that day..until that day.. the fantasy became reality. 24.12.2004 he confessed to her through text messages. and then being shy after that. she was tongue tight. she was excited. she acted cool and acted blur. *u cant possible say: "OH! I LIKE YOU TOO! WEE!" straight right?* and so that night they spoke what was in their heart. the feelings they that they hide. the years of silent love that have grown inside. things were really going and moving in the right way then. now, she wished that its still the same. for now, she feels like she's not the girl she used to be. the girl that she want when they first got together. she made things hard. for him. for her. for both. things have been rough at one point. they are still working on it. she knows that he love her so. but she definately loves him too. but she can be too confusing sometimes. not knowing what she wants. she is being selfish. she is just.. complicated. lost. unpredictable. im sorry for all the things i've put you through. i still love you the same. but at this point of time, i really dont know if i can make things right again. i dont want to make promises that i cant fufilled. i dont know when this will stop. but you are still holding on to me. and i trust you. i didnt mean to make you wait. i never want to make you wait. please.forgive.me. posted by heartthatcries at 7:57 PM "if you think i'm cute.."  Saturday was spend at Turf City. BURNT. BURNT.BURNT. no comments already la..haiya. s0, NTL against SRC: Taniwahs:2(Jo,Nana) SRC:1 READ THE WORDS ON THE TSHIRT. ITE friendly against OFS: ITE:5(Fifi(2),Nana(2),Yanti(1)) OFS:0 *good start ladies* The ankle sprained again during the 2nd half, right after the try. Worked earlier today before rushing down to Kovan to watch the 2nd half of Paya Lebar Punggol's match against Bishan Arsenal. Final score: PYP:4 BA:0 Yaya touching down from Vietnam tomorrow. Make up class is brought back to Tuesday, 11am at HPL. Received text message from coach Anne: "Ed & Nana, pls continue 2 ice ur injuries.have a gd rest this week. we will look in2 strengthenin wen u get back :) " err... strengthening. GREAT. "wen you get back" ~ does this means... i dnt have to come for training this week? :D oh well. above photos are just somethings i want you all to see. if you have seen it..shh.. till next time, nana Now Listening To: Wonderful Artist: Everclear posted by heartthatcries at 8:25 AM Wednesday, September 06, 2006:D this is 06.09 entry. *damn i saved it as DRAFT* .jpg) alrite. i skipped blogging yesterday.. woops.. man. i was so tired. Tuesdays and Thusdays: School Training & Club Training back to back. but yesterday, i felt one kind of tiredness. dont ask me why. i just felt tired.. so, what happened at school training was, i twisted my left ankle 2 times. its not swollen though. but the anterior tabialis (as mentioned by Ms Siti Asliza Ansuir) felt pain. till now. so she asked me to do alot of strecthing, icing and taking care of it. :D Club training as usual. played with the men. good run we had last night. :D Tomorrow's my IA presentation. 12pm at HPL. oh ya.. Nurul came earlier to do her slides. :D and now, to be exact, am waiting for the arrival of Nurdiana Samsudi. she needs to use the computer for her project too. okay. till i update again.. ;) .Uncertanity. Now Listening To: Everytime Artist: Cascada posted by heartthatcries at 8:36 AM Monday, September 04, 2006helL0
hi.
i missed updating this blog again and again. and i dont know when i will start updating everyday again. well, so much things happened. just too much. Monday 28th, was enough to make me feel so confused. you apologized. although i've texted you back when you texted me on friday, 01sept06, i am still uncertain and not sure of many things. but dont worry. i dont hold any grudges. Tuesday 29th, trained in school and then rushed to club training like usual. Wednesday 30th, went to Burdington Building with sister in-law. Accompanied her to collect her $100 Takashimaya shopping voucher. THAT was the 1st time i went out with kakak ipar alone. weird? its true.. and yup, went back by taxi. spend about 0.5hour at abang Edy and Kak Sima new home. and yes, THAT was the first time i saw the house after a few weeks they got the house key. Catch the 2nd half of the National U19 and some senior womens squad at Bedok Stadium with Fyda and Linda. Had roti pratas for a very late dinner with Linda and Yaya at the 24hours coffeeshop. Thursday 31st, was forced to get out of bed early to go back to school to represent Touch for Teachers day celebration. im proud to say: I MADE IT ON TIME. supposed to have a friendly game with Ngee Ann Poly, but it rained. Club training was also cancelled. but by the time i got the message, i was already outside with my big bag. i WAS out early so ya.. no ones to be blame.. hangout at Lido with yaya, reena, fyda and fad.. got my hair cut to short again. well, think i cant keep it long man.. Friday 1st september, kakak left for her company's trip to Australia. she will be back early morning tomorrow. come home safely dear. we all miss you.. Saturday 2nd september, woke up early to send Yaya off to the Airport for the U 19 vietnam trip. had NTL game at turf city against Tipiranahs. we won 6-1?.. hmm.. Zee, Nani and Mas was there to watch the game. thank you all for coming ya..and oh, thank you all for the clips that you all bought for me. :) met hardi at Toa Payoh. sat and talked..yup.. and oh, and oh!! abang bobby got me a Sony Ericsson K510i.. :D i like. thank you abang! Sunday 3rd september, NTL game against Blacks at Farrer Park Field. we won again. 10-0 this time. went home straight. then later in the evening, went to causeway point with abang booby, kak sima and baby norman. got myself WHITENING LOTION. phew. this is one hell of a one week list. okay. have a great start for the week. till next time. Nana Now Listening To: No Promises Artist: Shane Ward posted by heartthatcries at 12:15 AM |
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