dear ad,

i just want to let you know that i never meant to say goodbye. i am always forced to do it cos you tried so hard to forget me. how is it possible to forget me, to not hold on to me when im still around you? that doesnt make sense. all i want you to be is, happy.

we did it again. we said goodbye again. this is always happening to us. but we keep running back to each other. why? because we know that we are part of each other's life. cos we are friends. cos friends never said goodbye.

but this time, i doubt it will be the same. i doubt we will turn back and reach each other again.
although its hard to believe, its true. this has always been up to you.

dear ad,

the first time we said goodbye, i regretted it alot. the second, i feel the same.
forgive me it happened the third time. and i promise you, this would be the last goodbye.

i never want this to happened. but do i have a choice? i'm always trying to please you. but i kept failing.

i remember all the text messages about being friends forever. about promises to be there.always.

guess its all meant to be broken.
to be forgotten.

its very sad that we started as friend in a nice way but said good bye with valgurities thrown to my face.
i never thought a friend would do that to me. a friend. wow..

thank you so much for all those times. the laughters and the tears ad.

hate me. curse me. if that helps to make you feel better, to cure, to be free.

i wont hate you.

i will.remember you.friend.

nana

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posted by heartthatcries at 3:24 AM

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first and for most, i'd start of by saying THANK YOU so much for all the well wishes from evreryone who had wished me.

all the gifts and surprises i got from some of you is greatly appreciated. thank you so much everyone.

special thanks to:
1) of course, the Boyfriend for the very sweet and romantic surprise He did for my special day. 2 slice of Swensen's ice-cream cake, a candle and two bottle Snapple's grape baverage. and yes, for the Purple Puma Handbag he got me. the firework was a bonus for us as we dont have to stand in the crowd to watch it.
thank you so much dear. i had a great time.

2)Noor Adlina Bte Sainal for the 1day advance birthday treat at Swensen's. but before that the invitation to watch the fireworks @ Esplanade. and yup mama was there too. ;)
thanks you two!

3)Yaya, Nani, Zee, Eunice and Mas. wow. this group of friends really touched my heart.
can you imagine them cooking pasta at night for their "slumber" party over @ Zee's place AND Yaya and Nani actually cycle over to my home @ close to 1.00am to make a "special delivery" of the pasta to me.THANK YOU FRIENDS!

thank you once again people for the well wishes and all the presents!

oh, by the way, we got 3rd for both relays event. yeyey! good effort everybody. :D

what else what else?

hmmm...

oh ya! 6 more days to finish attachment! yippie!

you texted me about her. is there really something going on between she and me? i cant tell..

okay. till whenever i update again.

take care ppl.

Now Listening To: Dont be Mad
Artist: 112 ft. Twista

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posted by heartthatcries at 6:01 AM

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How the hell did we wind up like this.
Why weren't we ableTo see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Chorus:Someday, somehow gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long asyou know that someday I will
Someday, somehow gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehowgonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long asyou know that someday I will
Someday, somehow gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when

nickleback

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posted by heartthatcries at 2:50 AM

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another week past.

the week was another ordinary week, with attachment work + a Track & Fied meet back in school.

took a full day off on tuesday and wednesday for the heats and 200m finals. and a 1/2 day on thursday, for the 400m finals.

didnt do well. 7th for 200m and 5th for 400m. how embarassing that can be? haiyo..

coming up next friday: 4x100 and 4x400m relay finals.

all the best to us.

yup.

5/8/06:
had the warm up game for the upcoming National Touch League with Republic Polytechnic. scored 2 out of 14 tries. all the best to Wantoks Taniwhas. we can do it. yey!

ad was there to watch the game.

and oh. it is Grandma's (papa side) birthday. happy birthday GRANDMA.

and oh oh! i forgot to mention..
DONNA gave me a very advance birthday present! thank you thank you although i felt old 2 weeks before the actual day? ;) thanks sweetie!

what else?..

till then.

"i dont see a reason y this happened..but..sometimes, its just hard to explain"

Now Listening To: Someday
Artist: Nickleback

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posted by heartthatcries at 2:33 AM

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my mind is not at ease.
it keeps on screaming.
am i going crazy?
cos it didnt make sense.
i never want this to happen.
but i could see it coming.
i know,somehow,sometime, this will happen.
i havent given up on us.
never.
i still like you the same.
i still love you the same.
i still do.
i am covered with guilt.
the guilt of making you wait too long.
the guilt of keeping you lonely.
if you could hear what my heart wants to say,
this is what you should hear:
"you are all the things i ever wanted.and you are still the one. if you understand why im doing this,you wouldnt ask me why. the answer is right infront of you.i kept you in the dark for so long."
i thought it would help in a way.
but i realised it made things worst.
i havent change, like you think.
im still me.
i am just so confused sometimes.
im just afraid to hurt you more.
now, all that i want to say is,
you are still the one.

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posted by heartthatcries at 7:49 AM

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