Monday, May 29, 2006

untitled.

the first Wantoks training with the Australian coach today. had fun training.
yesterday's Blacks Fun Touch was okay. win 3, lose 3, draw 2 in the womens open category.
my temper was really bad yesterday. i was so vulgar.i was not me. i'm sorry i showed the other side of siti mas'ainah. i love you all. & hope you all still love me too.
well,i got hooked to Rihanna's latest single, Unfaithful. a very touchy and powerful song.

UnFaitHfuL.
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company
Hes more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because I'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true
and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I dont wanna do this anymore
I dont wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I dont wanna hurt him anymore
I dont wanna take away his life
I dont wanna be...
a murderer
I feel it in the air
as Im doing my hair
preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
Hes here reluctantly
as if Im gonna be out late
I say I wont be long
Just hanging with the girls
A liar didnt have to tell
Because we both know
where Im about to go
and we know it very well
cause I know that he knows Im unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I dont wanna do this anymore
I dont wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I dont wanna hurt him anymore
I dont wanna take away his life
I dont wanna be...
a murderer
His trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I dont wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)
I dont wanna do this anymore
I dont wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I dont wanna hurt him anymore
I dont wanna take away his life
I dont wanna be...
a murderer (a murderer)
No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah
~rihanna

counting down the days to the end of the 1 week training:
6

Now Listening To: Unfaithful
Artist: Rihanna

posted by heartthatcries at 9:20 AM

Friday, May 26, 2006

Stop. SECURITY Check.

DANCE MANIA was a kick-ass!!
everyone seems to have great time dancing to the superb music. it was inpressive that alot of the student came.
i was there to help out. the ~security~.
As and Kin-kin were there too. you both rock!!! wohoo!! thanks for accompanying me. *hugs*
free flow started @ around 11.30p.m.
looking forward for more of this fund raising event.
i had great night although was tired from the everyday race.
reached home at close to 3.am.

alright. gota ciao for work soon. happy weekend people!!

1 week. packed and tired. sorry dear. miss you. love you.

posted by heartthatcries at 11:42 PM

track & field meet 2006

wohoooo!
the race is finally over.
grateful and happy to get a medal for each event i took up.
400m ~ 2nd
1500m ~ 3rd
4x100m ~ 1st
4x400m ~ 1st
plus a last minute registration for 200m race finals got me another medal in the 3rd position. thanks to Ms Kristy who called Fee 10 minutes before the race.
great efforts were put in and everyone has a happy and enjoyable race. congrats eveybody! :D

Now Listening To: Blind
Artist: Lifehouse

posted by heartthatcries at 11:11 PM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

COMING up

the heats for 400m will be @ 3.40p.m today
the next 2 event coming up this wednesday:
1500m Finals
4X100m relay Heats. (Fefe,Mel,Mama & Myself)
smiling. -(faking it)-

posted by heartthatcries at 8:08 PM

small wonders

last few days since i last updated, many things happened.

OFS training on Thursday was alright. had dinner with Fee and Mel at Far East KFC and laughed like there is no tomorrow. the slip-tongue-disease.

Holiday on Friday was supposed to be a HOLIDAY for me. missed going to Sentosa with Fanana and Emo. so stayed home to look after the baby. later that day, after everyone came home, the Boyfriend came over.watched the telly-V together with the Family.

walkhaton.
saturday morning burnt. got to school @ 8a.m with Nunu and Mama. help set up a little bit of here and there. played alot, but i still think that its best if i was @ home sleeping cos attendance is NOT compulsory!! [BEEP]

X-eyes.
rushed home after the walkhaton event. sat for awhile infront of the entertainment-box. got ready for work.
later @ the bus stop,thinking to myself: "wah. late ready.15 more minutes to work but bus havent come yet. call chirstina! call chirstina!!"
Nana: "hi Chirstina. siti here. hey, i'll be 10-15 mins late leh..."
Chirstina: "huh? how come no one tell me you work today??"
-PAUSED-
Nana: "you just come ar? you sure anot i not working today? never mind, im still coming to double confirm my schedule."
-CLICK-
sh t. i was wrong!! was supposed to work on the next day actually. [doink]

Sally called right after i made my moved from the pushcart. she wanted to meet so she decides. going town to catch a movie.-VOICE. i went home to change my footwear. waited for 1/2hr for her call. got a text msg instead from her. she called it off.
what a Saturday!

did the closing on sunday. not many customer.

Now Listening To: Almost
Artist: Bowling for Soup

posted by heartthatcries at 7:29 PM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

you.me.US.

courtesy of princess naz.

it has always been you.
it has always been me.
and it has always been us.
together.
you were there when i d0nt feel right.
although i never show what is behind the smiles,
seeing you had made me realise...
that i am not alone.
that you are the reasons i am still standing strong.
and with y0u i had m0ved along.
with you i laughed.
with you i cried.
with you, it made me whole.
and with you,my sorrows fade away.

dear friends,
nunu,mama and momo.
thank you so much for being part of me. in many ways, (maybe) without you girls realising, you had helped me alot. most of which is not verbally, but silently. the actions.
though sometimes we used harsh words (nunu & mama) to tease one another, we still got along very well.. infact.. the bond between us getting stronger each day.
to momo, you had helped me in some ways. the silent touch.the unspoken words.(you know mo? i think sometimes,we really think the same way.and we dnt have to say it out. ;) ) cool isn't it?
yea.. thank you all girlfriends.
(to those i didnt mention, please dont get upset. one by one k? ;) )

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the body's aching from the first fitness training with WANTOKS yesterday.
fartlak.sprints.stride.sprint again.stride again. 1..2..3.. sets.. (adoi...)

psst..
i skipped SW today. could not wake up la..
went for class @ 12 though..
played capteh after calss till late afternoon.. went home with the girls..
a "laughing Day" for me. alot of funny things happened. sigh. wished the day never end.
well, looking forward for more of TODAY.
thank you friends for making my day.
goodnight.
shh..
and oh.. love you boyfriend! *

Now Listening To: Hips Don't Lie (UP0504P current Fav.)
Artist: Shakira

posted by heartthatcries at 7:29 AM

Monday, May 15, 2006

cRashed.

im crashed.
inside.
the feelings never lied.
pleased.
sad.
anger.
the secrect in the heart, only i know.
when i want to cry,
i hold it back.
i look forward and say:
"yesterday's gone.today is a new day."
sometimes.
sometimes it is just so hard.
when i tried to push the confusion aside,
small little things came by.
and this small little things lead to the big big things.
and the big big things leads to more confusion,
and the confusion leads to heartache,
and the heartache leads to tears.
and finally the tears leads to sleep.

Now Listening To: Stay
Artist: Lisa Loeb

posted by heartthatcries at 9:41 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

Strange & Beautiful

Thurday's class end @ 1.30p.m.
got chicken fied rice to feed Ms Bonch.
got change after 1/2-1 hr for track and field meet training with my girls for the 4x100 relay.
tarining starts @ 5.30p.m later that day.
not as many turned up.
we hold back the tears everytime. we tried so hard to keep it hidden. but when it finally poke us,its time to reveal what you hold back.

Friday was Vesak Day, and so it was a public holiday. went to work @ Bugis @ 3 p.m and got irritated by the "Human-traffic" @ the basement.
have to train a new assistant, Girona. 17 years old, studying in ITE Bishan, COS, 1st year. taught her the prices and the way to make and alter the strings. hopefully she can cope with the things and get familiarise soon. Maybel [the boss] asked me to see how Girona do her work and how she serve the customer + her conduct. not bad for a start i must say. except that she is still shy. well, i'm like that too when i first started. slowly k.. ;)

13/05/2006
Happy Birthday PAPA!!
:D
yup today's papa's bitrhday. weeee!!
may he be happy with what he got and keep on being a good PAPA.

"sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first. sometimes, the first thing you want never comes.and i know,the waiting is all you can do. sometimes." - Strange & Beautiful, Aqualung

Now Listening To: Potion For Foxes
Artist: Rilo Kiley

posted by heartthatcries at 9:58 PM

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

TIGER,SINGTEL,SOPHIA,ASLIZA. :)

Monday, 08/05
Sophia TIGER.
[last week, i have been talking to my friends about this shoe brand: SEAHORSE, for running.
surprisingly, most of them haven't heard or seen it before. so, i described to them how it looks like.]
this is a tale. a tale of a girl name Sophia.
met some of the girls early @ 10.00a.m today although class starts @ 1.00p.m.
reason being: to play street soccer in school.
and so we played under the crouching sun, which made my head spin,eyes blur and breathing difficult.
this is a conversation between Sophia and myself:
sophia (with the most confident tone and face): Eh ya Nana! i saw the TIGER shoe already! Quite nice eh.. (NOD HEAD)
Nana (Paused, blur face): huh? TIGER?
Sophia: Ya. the one you talk about the other time. you said you want to buy that one?...for running...TIGER right the brand?
Nana ( laughing like siow with the rest): Sophia? it is SEAHORSE.

MORAL of the story: Ask softly before saying out. kwang3 ;p (psst..sophia? *wink*)

Occured on the same day, now between ASLIZA and MYSELF.
[Asliza is using the same model handphone as me. she then took my handphone, turn it around and ask me to guess which one is mine.]
Asliza: okay na.. which one is yours?
so, i pointed out to my handphone, smiling.
Asliza: no wrong.
Nana (pointing @ the same HP again): this one.
Asliza (still denying): Noooooo....
Nana (paused,start laughing): Asliza? you know why i'm confident? cos mine doesnt have a SINGTEL sticker behind!!!

too bad As, FIFI caught y0u too. :D

MORAL of the story: IF you want to lie, hide the evidence. *wahahaha!!* ;p

Tuesday, 09/05
Meeting the New People.
Touch Rugby training with the May intake people starts today. attendence was very encouraging and hopefully, it stays like that till the Seniors graduate.
kill time playing capteh with Kinkin,As,Shahidah and Nazimah.
had fun today. really.

Wednesday, 10/05 [Today]
Thank You Dears.
class starts @ 9.00p.m today. eventually, came 25 minutes late. first class was SW. run 2 rounds of the track, did a circuit endurance thingy and hen played capteh again till class end.
after class ends @ 3.00p.m today, stayed for an hour in school. played a little bit more of capteh and had a mini cracker party with Sophia and the rest of the gang. haha!!
it was really best. had great fun this 3 days. thank you so much dear friends. i love you all.

Now Listening To: Breath
Artist: Michelle Branch

posted by heartthatcries at 7:49 AM

Friday, May 05, 2006

-Special-

dear blog,
LOVE just left about 45 minutes ago. he had drop by to pass me something pending for our 1st anniversary, which was last year.
it was something special i must say. although our 1st anniversary is over, the gift made me feel that today is the actual day.
a printed design of our name and his own design for the cover of the CD that he burnt is really very pretty. the 'casing' of the CD, which actually has our photo printed on it is really very nice. and at the back of it is all the song titles, which most of it is on my favourite list. + ALL the song lyrics been printed out in his format. the colors used is my favourite [not purple. but brown + pale yellow]. very very nice.
well, if you think LOVE use the normal CD casing, [TET!] you are wrong. you will understand when you see it. :D
sayang, I LOVE IT. thank you so much.. & i love you. *'',*

Now Listening To: One In A Million
Artist: Bosson

posted by heartthatcries at 8:18 AM

back to school

here i go again.
back in class.
meet my girlfriends.
feeling the bond between us will last.
the jokes keep getting better.
i hope that the bond keeps growing stronger.
here i am again.
still simple and plain.
i'm back to school.

Sunday,30 Apr - Monday,01 May 2006
stayed home.
monday was a public holiday. stayed home again although its the last day of the term break. waited for an angel to text me out, but they did'nt hear my call. OR maybe they are just busy.

Tuesday, 02 May 2006
the first day of 2nd year. reported @ 9.00a.m as told by Mr Koh Han Chow. class was released @ 10.00a.m. had a 4hrs break before the last class of the day starts. kill time with the girls @ Tampines Mall and slacking @ Coffee Bean @ Century Square. went back to school for lesson after that.

Wednesday, 03 May 2006
involved in the CCA Recruitment Day for the May-intake students. in between time, cabot for a while and went swimmimg with some classmates in school. went back to help out til the closing time..

Thursday, 04 May 2006
class ended @ 1.00p.m supposingly but was released a little early. like the last few days, walked to Simei Station with the girls to head for home.
accompanied Kakak to Mustafa Centre to look for her thing. eventually, what we brought home was 2 Hindi DVD, some hair clips and hair band. :D
i just realized that it has been quite some time that i haven't go out with kakak.. hmm..

Now Listening To: How Does It Feel
Artist: Sugarcult

posted by heartthatcries at 7:48 AM

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Monotonous is the middle name. boisterous in hyper situation. Silent when thinking. forgetful when hurried. smiles everytime. cries when in pain. laughs when worried. SITI.MONOTONOUS.MAS'AINAH. look through me. then, you will see.

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